Another year in the books

Andrew got home about an hour ago, and that officially makes 30 years in public education for him, 27 in his current district.  Under the rules when he started, he would have been able to retire this year, but even when that was an option, we never really considered it.  We'll see what the next year brings in public education and then he'll make a decision if 32 will be it or if he'll go a bit longer.

I only worked until Noon today, and honestly, it's all very glorious.  No summer camp this summer, so we have so much freedom in our scheduling and planning, and so much peace and quiet!  We definitely needed it after the craziness of the school year.  Yesterday when I got home, I got so much stuff done.  I made the comment to co-workers today that it sure is funny what  you can get done when you aren't mentally and emotionally drained when you get home from work!

We have a few fun plans this weekend, but mostly I'm just looking forward to thinking about the freedom of our summer!

I was pretty sure I was going to react that way

Today, finally, was our last day of school.  Every year we have a family picnic and then the annual "Egg Drop" activity.  Every year we hope for rain, and even though it always shows it might, it never does.  We've had some really cloudy days, but never rain.  Last week, it looked like it might rain today, then by this weekend, not really.  By last night it was looking much more likely, and then by this morning the day looked like a complete washout (and it has been).  So no picnic, but we still did the egg drop.

I kept having this vision that I would get to today, it would be over, and I would be come an emotional mess.  The relief of having this wretched year behind me would just get to be too much.  That's pretty close to what happened.  We have several really awesome students that are moving away or are not returning for other reasons next year.  I gave out some hugs, and when one family in particular came by to say goodbye, I couldn't stop the tears from falling.  I was able to hang out in my office and the tears just kept falling.  I was able to get myself together in order to say goodbye to my coworkers, and I headed home.  I was mentally and emotionally exhausted.  I've also come to realize that there is a lot of anger regarding things that were taken from us this year by a group of absolutely ridiculous parents.  I took a nap when I got home, and I'm still feeling pretty drained.  I get to sleep in about an hour later though for the entire summer (and later on off days) and I'm soooooo happy about that.

I'm grateful we made it through the year, and I'm grateful the summer is upon us.  Thirteen weeks of no school days are stretched out in front of us.  And I'm really looking forward to a good night sleep!

The last weekend of the school year

This weekend is the last weekend of the school year.  I keep reminding myself that this time next week I'll be able to sleep in for Memorial Day, and even the next 12 Sundays after still won't feel awful.  The workweek-to-weekend ratio isn't as rough in the summer.

Last evening we had dinner with some friends.  It's an hour drive each way, and given the exhaustion I've been feeling it felt a little tough at first, but we had a lovely evening.  The best part is that I was able to sit by Ellen, and I rarely get to visit with her even at these dinners.  I'm so grateful for that.

Today was a hard day.  I spent several hours at my mom's house, but we didn't get anything accomplished.  I kept telling myself it was okay that we just sat and visited.  I don't think Mom was up for much more, and although I feel badly because it is going to be awhile before I'm up there again to work.  I then went to visit my grandmother, and that was a rough visit.  She looks absolutely awful.  She couldn't understand why I was there so "early" (it was 2pm) and she had no idea what day it was.  She wasn't certain the last time she had seen my sister or when my aunt had called her.  She looked pretty awful as well.  I kissed her on the forehead when I left and told her I loved her.  I absolutely hate that she is "living" like this.  I miss her even though I can still see her.  I couldn't help but think about all the memories of she and Grandpa, and I'm so grateful for them.  And I'm missing my dad a little extra hard today, too.

That carefree summer I've been banking on to help reset my attitude is almost here!

We've really almost made it

Last evening was our last big school event of the year.  It was overcast and a bit chilly, but honestly, that seemed to kind of fit the year.  The best part is that we were finished by 8:30, which is the earliest that's happened.  Definitely not sad about that.  And now we only have two more full days and a half day.  Our admin team was talking about how hard this year has been, and it's hard to believe the things we had forgotten about.  We often forget about the parent who accused us of sharing confidential information with someone who "called" to talk about her child, even though we were not only able to share logistical explanations for why the story wasn't possible, but showed her our call logs for 90 days showing that the phone call never happened.  We forget about the staff member who refused to come to work when we told him that leaving over an hour early for over 30 days because he wanted to coach a sport wasn't really workable for the classroom.  These are BIG situations, but the rest of the school year was such a shit show that these don't even rank for the year.

We aren't hosting a summer camp this week, and with the timing of dates, we actually have an extra week of summer this year.  We are so counting on summer to reset ourselves.  Just three more days!!!

I graduated from college thirty years ago today

Exactly thirty years ago today I graduated with my accounting degree.  I can't believe it's been THIRTY YEARS!  Where did all that time go?  I'm not going to pretend it feels like yesterday, but I'll be honest, my 20's don't feel like they were that long ago.  I have a photo of that day of my friends who came to my ceremony.  We'd been friends since high school, and in one case, even longer.  Those friends are all still part of my life.  It may not be daily contact, but we'd all be there for each other if needed.  Life has been full of so many blessings.

Mother's Day 2026

Mother's Day has arrived again.  It has arrived at the end of another school musical week, and that brings absolute exhaustion.  The Friday after the musical is always such a hard day, and I went to bed at 8pm that night.  I was supposed to spend yesterday working at my mom's house, but between my exhaustion and my allergies it felt like more than I could handle.  Andrew and I spent yesterday doing a bit of shopping instead, and today we literally just hung around the house.  I've been spending some time trying to get things organized (or reorganized), as well as cleaning.  Honestly, it's been exactly the day that I would choose.

I feel a little badly that I didn't see my mom this weekend, but we are seeing lots of each other these days.  Of course, I still wished her a 'Happy Mother's Day' today.  Andrew called his mom, and we are going to take our moms out to dinner at some point.  Catherine, Thomas, and Lyndi all texted today.  It was so sweet of them.  It was odd not to see any of my kids at all though.  And of course, as a parent, there is always the realization that I have three children and no contact with one of them.  Mother's Day also brings up all the memories of those years that I wanted so desperately to be a mother, and I also can't help but think about all of the moms that are no longer with us.  It just seems like a challenging day for so many.

I'm incredibly blessed to have my amazing kiddos, and I'm grateful for so many things.  I'm also incredibly grateful that there are only eight more days of school remaining!

This weekend was a wonderful beginning to May

This weekend was a really nice beginning to the crazy month of May.  Andrew and I were exhausted at the end of the work week and went bed at 9:30 on a Friday night.  We are not in our 20's anymore! :)

Saturday morning I got up and went up to help at my mom's house.  She wasn't feeling great, and I ended up not being there very long.  It was such a gorgeous day, and I decided to make a quick trip to the cemetery.  I miss them all very much.  That evening we had dinner plans we are best friends, and it's always a fabulously fun evening with them.

Sunday was another absolutely gorgeous weather day.  Catherine had been at our house Friday evening to help with some weeding and other outdoor chores, and Andrew wanted to finish trimming.  I worked in the garages and was able to make a good deal of progress.  Honestly, I was delighted to soak up the gorgeous weekend weather.

Today is the exact opposite of that gorgeous weather, but I don't really mind.  It was a quiet day at school, except for the very wet carlines.  But, it is the only evening I'm home this week, and I'm so very happy to sit in my house and watch the rain fall outside.

Only eleven more days of school this year.  We can do this!