This weekend is the last weekend of the school year. I keep reminding myself that this time next week I'll be able to sleep in for Memorial Day, and even the next 12 Sundays after still won't feel awful. The workweek-to-weekend ratio isn't as rough in the summer.
Last evening we had dinner with some friends. It's an hour drive each way, and given the exhaustion I've been feeling it felt a little tough at first, but we had a lovely evening. The best part is that I was able to sit by Ellen, and I rarely get to visit with her even at these dinners. I'm so grateful for that.
Today was a hard day. I spent several hours at my mom's house, but we didn't get anything accomplished. I kept telling myself it was okay that we just sat and visited. I don't think Mom was up for much more, and although I feel badly because it is going to be awhile before I'm up there again to work. I then went to visit my grandmother, and that was a rough visit. She looks absolutely awful. She couldn't understand why I was there so "early" (it was 2pm) and she had no idea what day it was. She wasn't certain the last time she had seen my sister or when my aunt had called her. She looked pretty awful as well. I kissed her on the forehead when I left and told her I loved her. I absolutely hate that she is "living" like this. I miss her even though I can still see her. I couldn't help but think about all the memories of she and Grandpa, and I'm so grateful for them. And I'm missing my dad a little extra hard today, too.
That carefree summer I've been banking on to help reset my attitude is almost here!
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