I know I haven't written for a bit. It's been really crazy in our world, but that is a different post. Today, on the day before Easter, this is a post about church. And it's going to be long
Catherine is currently dating a man who was raised an atheist, and still considers himself that to this day. I don't think less of him, but I do feel a bit sad for him, as my faith has been one of the greatest comforts of my life. It also makes me a bit sad that my grandchildren (someday, no hidden info there!) may be raised without faith, but I can continue to pray on both counts. It's not for me to judge. I raised my children to love and be accepting of all. Her boyfriend is really a fabulous young man, and she could do (and has done) so much worse.
Tomorrow morning, my wonderful husband will get up really early so that he can take his mother to Mass. The kids are all staying over here and joining us for church at our regular service. This is the "hard" part of faith. My mother will not go to church with us. Our church doesn't "count" in her church. I won't lie, it can be difficult not to take that personally. And when we go to church with her, and we always do when at her place and often on holidays here so we aren't attending twice, we aren't allowed to fully participate. And even partially participating can be challenging as their are no bulletins or "programs" provided. So you either know it or you are just sitting there.
I know I sound a little bitter about this. And that is because I am. I tried to attend church regularly with my husband, but on more than one occasion I would leave in tears. I understand there is church trauma out there, and I completely understand how it can hurt. I am so, so grateful that we have found a church that makes both of us feel so incredibly welcomed and served, and we serve as well.
As we begin the season of Easter, I pray for church peace in the hearts of all. I pray that all feel the peace and comfort that my faith brings me. I pray that we love all, whether they are of the faith or not. I pray for healing faith of all kinds. I pray that the optimism and joy that we feel tomorrow lasts through the entire year. Happy Easter.