Twenty more days

I don't particularly like the fact that with four weeks left, I'm counting down the school days.  To be honest, I've pretty much been doing this since spring break.  I don't like wishing time away, especially as big a chunk as couple of months.  And yet, I'm longing for summer and the key word is definitely "break".  I worked every day last week with the exception of Tuesday when my aunt had surgery and I was at the hospital with my family.  I was originally scheduled every day this week, but there was a scheduling snafu and I was told Friday that I wouldn't be needed today.  I tried not to cheer out loud!  And that makes me feel guilty.  If I don't work, we absolutely can not afford any extras in life whatsoever.  We did fine up to a few years ago with just my husband's salary.  However, inflation of what we purchase and no increase in salary has made that a distant memory.  I'm not complaining...we are still better off than many, many people and we are very blessed.  And I LOVE subbing at the schools.  However, I also recognize that I'm not always a terribly nice person at home when I have to work all day every day.  See where the guilt comes in?  I certainly wish I could do a better job of handling stress and enjoying each moment!