Not really sure what to think about things

It's been a strange few weeks.  I'm not quite sure what to think about things.  After working almost non-stop through December, I've barely worked since Christmas break.  I was prepared for a slow January, but it seems as though these days I'm not really going to get called much by the scheduler.  I'm only getting scheduled by teachers who schedule me personally.  There is nothing I can do about this, so I'm just trying to go with it and accept it.  This morning about 8:00, I received a text from the scheduler asking if I could go in today.  I responded that I wouldn't be able to get there by the report time of 8:20, and that it might be closer to school starting but that I would be there!  She texted back a few minutes later with "Nevermind.  Thanks anyway."  I'm a little stunned.  I didn't say I wouldn't go in, and in years past it's always been perfectly acceptable to get there close to school starting if it was a last minute phone call.  I kind of feel like I just got fired, and I'm not at all certain that I understand what happened.  Again, there is nothing I can do about it so I just have to accept it.  Maybe it's a sign.  Maybe I'm just supposed to be the best stay-at-home Mom that I can be.  My concern is that I'm not at all sure I'm very good at that.  Mom guilt is really creeping in these days.

There has also been much continued drama surrounding our schools, and massive drama has popped up regarding our church religious ed program.  There is new drama surrounding my husband's school contract, and we are very grateful that he will have his administrator's license by the time summer arrives.  I don't anticipate him making the jump into administration, but it will be nice for him to have that option.  Of course that brings up all the unsettling questions of whether or not we need to be moving to my husband's school district, and it just seems as though so many things in life are in limbo and/or turmoil right now.  I try to remember that we are very truly blessed and life is really pretty good, but I've never been one that was good at handling conflict or drama very well.  Hopefully things will settle down quickly!