Yesterday I was on fire...walking on air! I mean, I was so pleased with myself...and felt good about life. I know it kind of sounds like I'm boasting or bragging, but I was so thrilled with how things had worked out. We had a work issue pop up, and I talked to a couple of people and everything seemed to be fine and everyone seemed happy. We had a couple of issues pop up with the kids that weren't overly serious, but definitely weren't minor either, and I handed that and worked through it. In fact, I actually had a couple of people tell me how impressed they were with how I had handled things. It was a good day, and I felt good about my abilities as a human being.
Then today happened. I should have known it was going to be a long day with the way our morning started. Catherine had an absolute melt down this morning. At one point she was actually storming through the house yelling at Andrew and I, "Screw both of you!" Yep those words were actually coming out of my sweet daughter's mouth...all by 6:30 this morning. Later I received an email from the church and the woman who is technically my boss letting me know that my problem solving of yesterday was not okay, and that we were going back to the system that had been in place before I arrived. The problem with this for me is that it wasn't being done correctly...and I'm not comfortable with that. As a church member, I expect that the office staff will handle my money appropriately and correctly, and I would suspect I am not the only one. I sent an email asking if we could sit down and talk about this instead of trying to work it out in an email, and the response I received this evening was that the old system worked for years. Nope, I'm not okay with volunteers counting the money incorrectly. There is no more basic task than that and there is no gray area...it is either right or wrong, and wrong is unacceptable. I've explained to Andrew that I'm not a "good enough" type of accountant, and if that is all they are looking for it will have to be someone else. He supports me, and hated seeing my cry earlier, but we both know that the money, such as it is, is very much appreciated in our monthly budget.
In addition, we caught Thomas in some lies and there were a few other complications with him, and I'm beginning to seriously wonder if he has some ADD. I don't want to be looking at excuses for him, and yet I don't want to be overlooking and downplaying an issue if there is something we can do to make it better. I honestly feel lost when it comes to this and just don't really know where to go with it. Catherine had another meltdown this evening. The attitude is just over the top, and I don't really know what to do about her either. Parenting is without a doubt, the most challenging, and emotionally charged job out there.
I told Andrew this analogy earlier this evening...If I compare my days to baseball, yesterday was the day where I hit the walk-off grand slam. Today is the day where I'm out in the outfield looking up at the ball that I realize I'm about to misplay when a bird poops on my face. Yep, that is today. I'm trying to remember just to be grateful that I still get to play the game each day.
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