Being present in the moments

I want to make sure that I am being present in the moments over these holidays.  In 2012, I took so many pictures and recorded so many memories.  I didn't know it then, but it ended up being Dad's last Christmas with us.  It was also the last holiday season we spent in our old house and town.  I'm so grateful for the pictures and memories from those holidays.

I find myself feeling the same way about these holidays.  I'm sure some of it is the age of my kids.  Nothing in life is guaranteed, but Robert is a junior and after this holiday season there is only one more where I can be confidant he'll get to be with us for the celebrations.  I'll be honest, that is often front and center in my thought process, and I want to soak up the special memories as long as I can.

I know the age of my in-laws is also a factor.  My father-in-law is 81, and my mother-in-law is 77.  We'd all like to think they'll be around for another 20+ years, but we are realistic people.  And of course my brother-in-law continues to deteriorate.  During the summer of 2015, I remember telling everyone that I was sure he'd be around for those holidays, but doubted he'd be there to celebrate two years later.  That would be next year.  

That's why I'm making sure the camera goes with us as we celebrate these holidays.  I'm grateful for each of the memories, and I'm grateful for the peace this recognition brings.