Ready to move on

For the past three weeks I was subbing in the same room due to a teacher's absence, and there was a student teacher.  It was a fabulous way to spend my days.  I really appreciated knowing where I was going each morning, but I didn't have a whole lot of responsibility.  It was nice while it lasted.

This week, I am back as a roving sub.  This is exactly what I needed to remind myself that I am ready to move on from this.  Not only do I arrive to work each day not knowing exactly where I'll be needed and what I'll be doing, but I've also had to cover other classes so there has been no free time.  I understand my new job won't have any free time either but I'll be doing something productive with my time.  For the first time this year, I sat on the couch this morning and said to Andrew, "I really don't want to do this."  He pointed out I am almost done.

Yesterday I was able to help our home district with interview judging for the Ag kids.  Oh my goodness, it was wonderful and made my heart hurt all at the same time.  It was so wonderful to see so many kids, and it made me sad that I won't be getting to work at the high school anymore.  I am very excited about my new job, but it's going to take me a long time to get over being bitter that I didn't get the office job at the high school.  It would've allowed me to still see those kiddos.

Seven years ago today was the last time I ever heard my dad's voice.  I'll never stop missing him.  Mom is moving this week (just in case we needed more changes).  I never lived in the house in which she lives, so I have no attachment to it, although that is the last place my dad was.

So many changes...but time to move on.