Mid-week

We are into Wednesday evening.  I appreciate being "over the hump" for the week, and I further appreciate that only work until 11:30 on Wednesdays.  I'm not going to lie, today was a bit of an emotional day today.  I had to make a trip to take Thomas his glasses.  I took our sweet pup with me, and it was nice to spend a few minutes watching them together.  Thomas is doing better today, and he also was very happy that he got a job this morning!  He will be able to lifeguard at the pool at school.  It's a great fit for him.  I'm glad I was able to see him in person and hug him for a few minutes.

For the first time, I'm finding myself struggling with being an empty nester.  It's not that I'm sad that my adult children are off at college, it's that I'm a little sad that they are adults.  I was determined not to be that person, but for this evening that's who I am.  I no longer get a say in whether my children are around or whether all holidays are completely devoted to our family.  I know this isn't a bad thing, and I am proud of the adults my children are becoming.  I know that I was careful to soak up the little things, and I'm so grateful that I was home with them so much and for so many things.  I know that we made so many memories and I'm so, so grateful.  Walking past those empty bedrooms this evening though, well, it's getting to me.  I also know that's okay as well, and it won't be long until I adjust to this new phase of life.