Topsy Turvy

I'll be honest...my emotions are all over the place right now.  Sadly, we've somewhat been surrounded by death recently.  Nothing at all in my immediate family, for which I am VERY GRATEFUL, but some dear friends have lost parents in the last month.  I suppose we are reaching that age, but I'm just not ready for that.  Ready or not, here it is.  My prayers are with so many I care about right now.

I'm also conflicted about many things happening in our home.  I'm so excited about JR starting a new school next year, but don't like the fact that he's going to be so far away.  I want to make so many fun memories with the kids while they are young, because this time is going so very quickly.  But when I think of the trips and things I'd love to do with them, it all costs so much money.  And I know it isn't about the money we spend that makes good memories...it's about the time together.  And I know that sitting and playing games and reading together here at home...those are good memories too (and cost nothing).   I'm ANGRY that one of the people that tormented JR has continued to be a jerk at the community pool, and I feel completely helpless about what I should do.  I've taught JR that he shouldn't just haul off and punch him (and I'm not sure that JR has it in him to so) but JR shouldn't just be a punching bag for this kid either.  And the kid is really, really sneaky.  He's very quiet and subtle in his torment...for instance he kicks JR in the head underwater, where NO ONE CAN WITNESS IT!  I just want to protect my kids from hurt, but I know in the long run that doesn't do them any favors!

 Like I said, I'm just a bit of an emotional wreck these days!