Friday, November 22, 2013

Hoping it ends just as it began

A year ago today, Catherine's classmate Grace passed away.  Her family has grieved with such strength it has amazed me every day.  Having just lived it, I am certain her family also felt grateful she was no longer suffering, but I can not imagine losing a child.

Since Grace's passing, we have also lost my great-uncle, my aunt's mother, a friend's father, my father's best friend, and now my dad.  On top of that, one of our cats died, we moved and I had to give up a job that I loved, the kids have switched schools, Andrew's brother had a stroke last week, and there was some drama last spring involving our children.  That's a lot in just a year folks.

When I was in high school, my tiny hometown lost nine teenagers to car accidents...that was a HUGE amount.  I remember when Jeannette died.  Of the nine, the was the last one and the one I personally was closest to.  I remember gathering with friends and thinking to myself, "this is it.  This will be the last one.  We can't take anymore."  I am grateful that it was five years before another tragedy of that type befell our community.

I kind of feel that way now.  Overall, I recognize that our family is still amazingly blessed, and I experience gratitude on a daily basis.  At the same time, I am done.  This needs to be the end.  While last year's Thanksgiving was the beginning of a cycle of stress and sadness, I am completely confidant that this year's Thanksgiving is the beginning of a cycle of healing.

No comments: