Feeling beat

I'll be honest, I'm just kind of feeling beat up today.  Nothing went according to plan, which honestly, isn't really that big of a deal...except that I just don't have that "reserve" to carry through right now.  I feel guilty that I haven't been up to see Mom, but I know that I'll be there when she needs me.  She's feeling great and trying to get lots of things taken care of while she is still feeling good.  And let's face it, my crying isn't going to help her in any way.   It's just so overwhelming right now, and the news of the death yesterday has just kind of pushed me over the edge.  My small hometown has experienced so much sadness in the last six months that it's almost unreal...and my family has been a part of it directly.  I'm so grateful for the friends who are coming out of the woodwork, just like they did when Dad died, to be supportive.  I appreciate their support, and honestly, I oh so very much need it right now!