Having kind of a tough day

I know that life is wonderful and blessed, but to be honest, I'm having a bit of a tough day.  I acknowledge it could be the approaching anniversary of my father's passing, coupled with the craziness of the last couple of weeks, and of course the daily drama of life with teens.  There is also the added expense of having to fix the washing machine, refrigerator, and water softener all this week and new brakes and rotors on our van last week.  While I am grateful the money is in savings, and we are by no means going broke, it just seems as though it has been an expensive year.  I've given serious consideration to trying to find a job, but I suspect poor choices by teens would only grow worse if not supervised.

Right now, the biggest source of stress is my email.  Not the email itself, but items contained within, so I'm king of trying to avoid my email altogether.  My volunteer "job" has exploded.  I have handled several additional responsibilities because no one else would handle them.  I didn't want to, but I did because they needed to be done and that's the way it is.  However, I have been receiving criticism for how I handled things.  People think things should've been done faster or differently, and aren't afraid to let me know about it.  I am astonished, as frankly, the organization should feel lucky they are done at all because no one else was going to do it!  Trust me, I know because last year several of the things weren't handled so I decided to do it this year so it would be done.  It is absolutely amazing to me that people could have such nerve.  It is honestly making me reconsider if this is where I wish to be spending my time and energy.  The hard part for me is that this is an organization that involves my kids.  If it didn't, I would walk away in a heartbeat.  If I do that now though, I'm just leaving my kids to deal with the negativity and lack of follow through, and that is a tough thing for me to do as well.

I am finding myself truly astonished and appalled at the lack of respect, responsibility, and communication that occurs in this world.  Some days are just tougher than others.