I'm not ready for that to end

I've wondered for years if Catherine and Thomas still believed in Santa, and yet I didn't want to tell them...I didn't want that magical innocence to end.  Yesterday Catherine finally made her Christmas list and put it in her window for one of Santa's elves to retrieve.  Thomas made his list in the form of a google doc, then shared it with me.  I had sat and looked at it with him, and he checked to see if Santa had a google account so he could share it with him also.  Again, I just couldn't believe that he might still believe in Santa, but I so didn't want to ruin the innocence of the moment.  I walked into the next room and whispered to Robert, who assured me that Catherine is well aware of the reality of the situation, but wasn't sure about Thomas.  Later I was talking to Andrew, and he said that one of Thomas's teachers had said they had discussed in class that Santa wasn't real.  In some ways I was glad to hear he wasn't so naïve, but at the same time I almost wanted to cry.  We will never again get those innocent and magical Christmases back.  Thomas still mentioned the elf that we have that visits every December, and I'll be honest, I have every intention of playing along as long as the kids will.  These days are special and won't last forever.