Another migraine

I have yet another migraine headache today.  I think it is due, in part, to my age, but I also know the weather isn't helping.  Right now it is flurrying outside, which is gorgeous, but weather really affects my headaches.  I'm sure it also doesn't help that I had a bit of bug this week.

I also think my emotions probably don't help either.  I'm feeling a little stressed, although I really shouldn't be.  I guess I'm just at that point of the school year where I begin to think about next school year.  Andrew and I do not want to drain our savings by my being home, so some things need to be adjusted.  I have the part time job at my church and I love it, but 5 hours a week isn't going to cut it overall.  Andrew is considering looking into coaching football again.  It has been nine years since he's done so, and I'm supportive of it, especially if he can do so at the middle school level.  I've been thinking about going back to subbing, but I just really want to go back to our former district.  I had myself all talked into it yesterday and was excited and looking forward to it.  Then I started to realize the problems that would occur here with my not being home until nearly 5:00, and I realized it just doesn't seem to be a viable option.  I feel selfish for wanting it "my way" when subbing here just a couple of days a week really is the most practical option...and goodness knows I am practical!

Things have been tough with the kids (specifically the boys) and school as well.  Robert seems to be just checking out, and Thomas doesn't seem to really know what is going on around him.  With the attitudes of them all, I pretty much feel like a complete parenting failure, and that is pretty tough since that is pretty much all I've been responsible for since I became their mother.  I don't know how to motivate or get through to either one of them, and as I said to Andrew last night, I'm just tired of the daily struggle that school brings into our lives.  He completely understood what I meant, and I appreciate his support in that regard.  At the same time, parenting is not always fun, and often it requires a great deal of sacrifice and inconvenience, so I just need to get over myself.

I think ultimately, that is exactly what needs to happen in my life...I just need to get over it and get 'er done.