I want to work

I am being ridiculous I know, but the little panic about working is setting in already.  Last year I worked the first three days.  That doesn't happen...I know that in my head.  I am working today, and even that is pretty rare.  For the first week, teachers just don't miss.  My fear is that I'm not even getting jobs for later.  That is what terrifies me.  I also know that this is how things work.  Last year kind of spoiled my perspective though.  I WANT to work.

I also need to work.  We have reached a point where that isn't an option.  I'm not complaining.  We are still in decent shape, especially compared to so many.  However, for a couple of years now, our expenses have been beyond our income, and the savings has dwindled.  It really can't dwindle much more.  I am so blessed that Andrew is really supportive and absolutely encouraged me to make whatever decision I thought was best.  I was thrilled to be subbing again this year, and I am so excited to be back at the high school today.  I literally feel as though I belong here.  Not only am I getting a key to the building, one of the staff members has decided I should have a school email account and is going to look into it for me.  I just hope I didn't make a terrible mistake deciding not to go after other jobs. I hope this all works out okay, and I hope I can make a difference being here!