Our spring break begins in four hours and thirty-eight minutes. I know it sounds a little ridiculous that I am counting down this much. Honestly though, the last week has been draining. I've been fighting an uphill battle in the classroom since I've been the "regular" teacher since the middle of last week. I felt not just being a sub, but taking on the responsibilities of being that teacher was the right thing to do. It isn't fair to the kids that things have been so messed up, and I have worked really hard and tried to do the right thing. It has been met by tremendous resistance from the students, who apparently were not expected to do much work during the course of the year. At the same time, I'm not allowed to pull the "your teacher isn't coming back, and you need to accept doing things my way" because they can't guarantee that I will be here the rest of the year. It's been tough, and I'm worn out.
I haven't felt well either, and Thomas continues to struggle with school. I don't think anything can make me feel like such a lousy parent as Thomas's school performance. Honestly, I don't know what to do. I am overwhelmed and scared. He isn't a behavior problem like Robert could be, but his grades aren't good either. My heart breaks for his struggles, and I just don't know how to help.
I've been interrupted a lot while putting this together, and we are now down to three hours and forty-seven minutes. I can't wait to spend the next week just focusing on my family!
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