The end of the school year and beginning of our summer

I have to admit, this school year ending has been rather anti-climatic.  After all, we've all been sleeping in for months now, and there hasn't been so much activity happening that we can't wait for a slower pace.  In fact, we would love to have a few things scheduled.

I've been so, so sad about some things though.  Like most, I am sad that this special group of young people graduated and I didn't get to say good-bye.  As I told someone this morning, in many ways it is so unfair that this graduating class, who is so full of such amazing young people, had to endure this.  But then I mentioned that if any class could handle it with grace and dignity, this is the group.  This class isn't special because it happens to have my daughter in it.  My daughter just happens to get to be a member of this incredibly special class, and that has been a tremendous blessing.

The end of this year has brought about so many emotions about my "job".  Being a parent has been my #1 priority, and that will continue.  I'll be down to just one at home though.  The future of my paying job is so incredibly uncertain.  Will there be a need for subs if the school is 100% remote?  The latest thought was using all of the buildings as k-6 spaces and 7-12 would be all online.  That would mean Andrew would be home Thomas for the entire time.  I could continue to sub for the younger kids, or go get a different job since Andrew would be here.  I can do that.  But watching the teacher tribute video the other evening reminded me that not only do I have the best co-workers at the high school, so many of them have become friends.

It was tough for me this spring to be missing all of the same things that the "real" teachers were missing, but having no class of "my own" to contact or reach out to.  I don't know if I get to work with these teachers or teens in the fall, or if it will be younger, or if I need a different job.  I hate the uncertainty, but so many others have life problems that are very, very much worse.  I just feel a little loss and without direction right now, but I also feel confident and have faith that things will work out just as they are meant to be!