A lot going on

May is always crazy, although this year it is for different reasons.  Yes, Andrew is still coaching baseball (I'll be honest, I'm just over it this year), and we added Thomas playing tennis to it this year.  Because tennis matches start at 4 and I now have to work until 4, I only go to home matches (except for his very first match).  Of course, I have a "real" full-time job this year which is new to us, and that adds a little craziness as well.

There is also so much happening in our extended families, and I can't help but feel there is a lot of loss we are going to be seeing.  Andrew's father has stabilized, but reality is that we'll be beyond lucky if he makes it another two years.  My grandmother has weakened quickly.  She had decided over the weekend that she would move into assisted living when her rehab stay was over, but has now decided that she'll just go straight to the nursing home.  That is a lot to process, considering a week ago things were still pretty normal for her.  It makes me emotional.

My sister also called last night to tell me that she learned my uncle, the one making mom's life challenging, has been in the hospital.  He was diagnosed with leukemia many years ago, but the doctors felt, at the time, that it would progress so slowly that something else would kill him eventually.  It turns out that things have changed, and he is currently undergoing treatments for the leukemia.  It is sad that my sister learned through a mutual acquaintance and not because anyone was contacted.  My sister reached out, and there is hope that he can still be stabilized.  It makes me sad though, because things are just so unpleasant with that.

I am grateful for my faith which provides comfort and peace, but I won't lie.  I'm emotional and drained quite a bit these days.