Mother's Day 2021

 Today has been a very nice day.  Catherine's best friend came over last night and spent the night.  She left early afternoon.  It's been a soaking rain day, and that gave me exactly the justification I needed to sit on the couch and not do much.  The house is generally picked up, and although I did a load of laundry, I've allowed myself to just kind of sit today.  Andrew gave me a few very nice gifts, but the best were from the kids.  My awesome kiddos picked them out and paid for the gift card and card themselves.  They are absolutely awesome.  I'm more blessed to be their mother than I can put into words.

Last evening we attended the FFA awards.  At one time, I was literally in tears.  My heart is at that school and with those kids.  I miss them so much.  They also honored many of the accomplishments from last year that involved the class of 2020.  The advisor mentioned how fabulous and special that class had been, and it's so very true.  It really tugged at my heart.  I was able to see many of the kids and give hugs.  It was very nice.

I had learned a couple of weeks ago that the head secretary job at the high school was open.  I had told Andrew I never wanted that job because it worked all summer (I found out not exactly the case), but it almost seemed cruel that all three jobs had been open this year.  Today, I found out the assistant secretary job is now open as she is the one who transferred into the head job.  So, the job I first applied for nearly eleven months ago is open again.  Honestly, I wanted to cry.  My heart is at that school, and that is exactly where I want to be.  I don't love the job I'm currently in, but I do appreciate the financial comfort is currently provides, and I certainly don't dislike it.  I feel like I need to give the job I'm in a year, and go through a normal school year and see if things get better.  And ultimately, I don't feel like I can put myself through the up-and-down emotions of applying for the job at the high school again.  It hurts though, and it almost seems as though it's just fate being cruel.

Regardless of that situation, I've really enjoyed my day today.  I"m so grateful for my amazing family, my amazing kids, and our life.  Tomorrow I'll get to see my own mother and my grandmother, and I'm very excited about that!