Yesterday was just a very raw day. Andrew and I dreaded going to bed without our sweet girl, but we also really wanted the day to be over. I'm so grateful it was a Friday. Our bed felt big and cold without Abby last night. Waking up today though, it felt less raw than yesterday.
There were still tough moments though. Andrew was going to his mom's today, and I was dreading him leaving because Abby was always depressed when he'd leave. This time though, I was dreading him leaving for an entirely different reason. This house is so quiet and it feels so empty. I miss her so, so much. I watched some videos of her this evening and allowed myself to have a good cry.
I know this is part of owning a pet. We outlive them and we miss them. Yesterday, I felt it was my job to be strong for Andrew. This evening though, I'm really reminded that it just really sucks. It also doesn't help that I don't have a vehicle (that is another post) and I'm basically stuck here for the weekend. I know that there are worse things in life, but today I'm still sad. It just feels so sudden. I also can't help but feeling if she hadn't tripped on Wednesday, she might still be with us. I wish I could go back in time and keep her from doing that.
I'm sad, but I know tomorrow will be better.
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