I'm trying to find balance as a working mom. I'm not sure I'm doing a very good job with it. With some expenses coming up and three full weeks off at Christmas, I am trying to work as much as I can. That often means that I need to go to the church after finishing at school. Or it might mean that I take an elementary job which means I get home later in the afternoon. I just feel it's what I need to do. However, I am reminded that being mom is still my first priority. Catherine has been asking each day if I will be home when she gets home. I've been trying to make sure that I am home at least every other day, and not be out of the house two days in a row.
I also worry about Thomas. He's been much less cheerful, and even one of his teachers mentioned it to me last week. So much so, that he was so happy in class one day this week that she felt it was noteworthy enough to send us an email. I think the last couple of months have taken a bit of a toll on him. Our entire focus has been on swim. Every evening, two kids had swim (and Catherine had mock trial many times as well) so our focus was really on how logistics were going to work. One or two evenings a week Thomas, Andrew, and I might have sat down for dinner but many nights things were just thrown together whenever there was time. He's been spending a lot of time by himself while the rest of us were running around, and he's missing his brother and sister, especially Catherine. I suspect he may also be sensitive to the lack of sunshine that is happening this time of year, and we've had plenty of cloud cover during the few daylight hours that do happen.
I'm trying very hard to be more present with all of my children. This is exactly the reason I've been hesitant to resume working...I don't want to lose my focus as a parent. I'm hoping I can keep everything in perspective and find the right balance!
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