Even though I didn't work today, the alarm was still set for over an hour earlier than I'd been up in weeks. Ugh! That is the hard part about this week, and today specifically. In fact, even on "early" days over break, I'd be getting up about now, and I've been up for 90 minutes already. I am helping my mother with a doctor appointment for G.G. tomorrow, so I won't be working tomorrow either. Kind of a nice way to "ease" back into the chaos. And trust me, our calendar is very colorful this week, indicating plenty of chaos.
I was pretty emotional last night for a variety of reasons. One was that I didn't feel quite right, but certainly another was the end of this break. I truly love getting to be a sub, but I am not one that loves being up at 5AM. I also love having my kids at home and having our little family together. With the reality that Catherine will be living in an apartment rather than a dorm, I recognize she most likely will not be around for weeks next year. It is more likely to be days. I regret I didn't take more pictures or play more family games.
The passage of time is hitting me hard right now. One of my grandmothers turns 89 tomorrow, and the other is in a rehab facility. My father-in-law is deteriorating. I can see a great deal of loss in our future, and it pains me. I try very hard to hold on to the happiness that is in each moment!
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