For the third time this year, Catherine earned grades to be on the honor roll. We are so proud of her! In fact, this quarter was her highest GPA so far this year. Because Andrew had class during the breakfast, I made sure to have the day off. It was my first (and only) school day off this month, but I filled it with errands, meetings. and appointments that can't happen many school days, but still need to happen.
Last evening, Andrew's game was cancelled, which meant once he was finished with practice he was home for the evening. Thomas had musical crew obligations, so we took advantage in order to have some dinner someplace Thomas won't eat. We told Catherine she could choose and it would be another celebration of the honor roll. She chose Mexican and we enjoyed our dinner. We are so proud of our girl and the young lady she is becoming!
Saturday, March 30, 2019
Thursday, March 28, 2019
Today is the Cincinnati Reds' Opening Day!
Baseball season officially gets underway in Cincinnati today! I love this day! Not only is baseball back, but spring can't be far behind. Even though it has officially been spring for nearly a week now, we haven't had much springlike weather at this point.
For years, I have tried to make Opening Day a "clear" day on the calendar. When I was in college it was fairly easy as my classes were usually finished by early afternoon. Once I began working after college, I could usually have the radio turned on my co-workers were fans as well so they didn't mind. Becoming a mother meant even more availability to "celebrate" the day! I remember years of dressing the kids in either Reds clothing (or even just red clothes) and dedicating the day to baseball.
When I began working, it became challenging because I didn't always think ahead before accepting a job. And there were also years (as they do now) when Opening Day was moved to the middle off of Monday and to another day of the week. Even when we moved and I didn't work for a few years, there always seemed to be a track meet on Opening Day! This year, we have no track participants, but I'm working today, and I have to go straight to my church job right after school. I hope to be able to accomplish only what I absolutely have to get done, and then head home.
This year, Andrew and I actually have tickets to Sunday's game. It's going to be pretty chilly, but I am looking forward to an afternoon together with just him!
For years, I have tried to make Opening Day a "clear" day on the calendar. When I was in college it was fairly easy as my classes were usually finished by early afternoon. Once I began working after college, I could usually have the radio turned on my co-workers were fans as well so they didn't mind. Becoming a mother meant even more availability to "celebrate" the day! I remember years of dressing the kids in either Reds clothing (or even just red clothes) and dedicating the day to baseball.
When I began working, it became challenging because I didn't always think ahead before accepting a job. And there were also years (as they do now) when Opening Day was moved to the middle off of Monday and to another day of the week. Even when we moved and I didn't work for a few years, there always seemed to be a track meet on Opening Day! This year, we have no track participants, but I'm working today, and I have to go straight to my church job right after school. I hope to be able to accomplish only what I absolutely have to get done, and then head home.
This year, Andrew and I actually have tickets to Sunday's game. It's going to be pretty chilly, but I am looking forward to an afternoon together with just him!
Wednesday, March 27, 2019
This icky cold came out of nowhere
Yesterday while I was working, I noticed that my nose was a little sniffly. I thought it was odd because I felt absolutely fine. However, then the evening hit, and I didn't feel fine. I realized I had a full-blown, all out cold. Ugh. I went to bed super early last night, but of course I couldn't sleep. I am working today, but am so grateful that it is early day. I had thought I might go to church and work after school today, but that is not going to happen. Instead, I am going home, getting Catherine off to her afternoon job, and then going to allow myself to take a nap. I've had some cold medicine this morning, and have another dose ready to go, I've had some tea, and it seems as though a nap is the perfect thing that will go along with that. The ironic thing is that I've been taking my vitamins and really watching things like that. Oh well, life goes on, and if this is the worst that happens, life is pretty good!
Tuesday, March 26, 2019
We had a productive weekend
This past weekend was very productive. Extremely busy, but that was part of what helped us to be productive!
It started Friday afternoon when Andrew and I headed north to attend the visitation of my cousin's ex-wife. Neither of us particularly wanted to go, and for the most part, our side of the family wasn't particularly welcome. However, three children are involved and we felt it was important to make an appearance. While we didn't love being there, it was nice that Andrew and I had an hour car ride each way. It was just he and I, and we had nothing to do but chat with only each other. We don't have a lot of time for things like that these days.
Andrew was gone literally all day, and then again all evening Saturday. I got Thomas to school for set construction and then ran a bunch of errands. After attending the memorial service Saturday, my day was just getting a few things done around the house...and nothing major.
Sunday we had a meeting after church, then dropped Thomas at school again, before heading out to my aunt & uncle's house with the chainsaw. They had hoped we could help with yard work last fall, but that never happened. After more damage to trees occurred from an ice storm, we really needed to get out there before spring really got started. Another cousin met us there, and it was really nice to be able to get things picked up for them. It was nice to have that done! We stopped at the grocery on the way home for a couple of dinner things, and then we headed home.
This was the most important part of our weekend...Andrew fixed our dryer!!!! The part had arrived Saturday and Sunday late afternoon was the first opportunity Andrew really had to work on it. Fortunately, it worked exactly as it was supposed to, and when we plugged it in and pressed "start", it did exactly what it was supposed to do! I don't know the last time I was so excited about doing laundry! Because the dryer was fixed I was able to get all the drying racks taken down and put away. I was then able to organize and pack the storage tubs that had been sitting around. That isn't completely finished, but major progress made. It was wonderful to have such a productive weekend!
It started Friday afternoon when Andrew and I headed north to attend the visitation of my cousin's ex-wife. Neither of us particularly wanted to go, and for the most part, our side of the family wasn't particularly welcome. However, three children are involved and we felt it was important to make an appearance. While we didn't love being there, it was nice that Andrew and I had an hour car ride each way. It was just he and I, and we had nothing to do but chat with only each other. We don't have a lot of time for things like that these days.
Andrew was gone literally all day, and then again all evening Saturday. I got Thomas to school for set construction and then ran a bunch of errands. After attending the memorial service Saturday, my day was just getting a few things done around the house...and nothing major.
Sunday we had a meeting after church, then dropped Thomas at school again, before heading out to my aunt & uncle's house with the chainsaw. They had hoped we could help with yard work last fall, but that never happened. After more damage to trees occurred from an ice storm, we really needed to get out there before spring really got started. Another cousin met us there, and it was really nice to be able to get things picked up for them. It was nice to have that done! We stopped at the grocery on the way home for a couple of dinner things, and then we headed home.
This was the most important part of our weekend...Andrew fixed our dryer!!!! The part had arrived Saturday and Sunday late afternoon was the first opportunity Andrew really had to work on it. Fortunately, it worked exactly as it was supposed to, and when we plugged it in and pressed "start", it did exactly what it was supposed to do! I don't know the last time I was so excited about doing laundry! Because the dryer was fixed I was able to get all the drying racks taken down and put away. I was then able to organize and pack the storage tubs that had been sitting around. That isn't completely finished, but major progress made. It was wonderful to have such a productive weekend!
Monday, March 25, 2019
Not so much madness this March
My favorite weekend of basketball has come and gone. To be honest though, it wasn't "all that". First of all, the only time I could really just sit and watch for hours was Thursday late afternoon into early evening. It didn't really matter to me though, because there were only a few games where the underdog was really competitive in the game, and even fewer where the underdog knocked off the better seed. Saturday evening, I even got to where I decided to put in a video rather than watch the games that didn't interest me at all. Yesterday, Andrew wanted to turn on a baseball game that was just an exhibition rather than watch a basketball game that we didn't care about. I found the tournament to be disappointing this year!
That wasn't really sawdust in his eye
Saturday afternoon was a memorial service for a friend/colleague's father. Andrew had a double header baseball game and Catherine had to work. Thomas had set construction all day, but he wanted to attend the service with me since Kyle (son) is one of his teachers. I picked him up early enough for a shower and lunch. We delivered the food we had agreed to bring, and found a seat in the small church. I had only met the deceased one time a few years ago, and just for a few minutes. However, Kyle's family is dear to us, and as a Navy vet, Kyle was such a tremendous resource in navigating the recruitment process and many other things. Because we had not known his father personally, I knew there would be some sadness, but not super emotional. Before the service actually began, they showed a video. There were many pictures from throughout the man's life, and some from when Kyle was a teen. Then they showed more recent pictures, and there was the man with his grandkids. We adore Kyle's kids...his six-year-old twins and 15 month-old son. When the pictures began with the kids, I saw Thomas begin to dab at his eyes. It was so sweet, as he looked at me and said, "I have sawdust in my eyes from set construction." That child makes my heart melt. He has always worn his heart on his sleeve and has been such an emotional and sensitive child. I knew there was no sawdust in his eye, but I wasn't about to comment on that. I'm so grateful for my kiddos.
Saturday, March 23, 2019
Feeling nostalgic
I ran several errands this morning, and since it was really early, no place I went was crowded...and the college students being on spring break made it even better!
As I was out and about, I couldn't help but notice all the cute spring clothes that are out. And when I say cute, I mean for little kids. So, so many cute little outfits. Oh goodness, it really, really tugged at my heartstrings. I so very much miss buying cute little outfits for my cute little kids. I love, absolutely love, everyday, watching my kids grow up, and seeing them develop into the people they are becoming. It's just that it all happens so fast.
While running errands in the car, I was listening to a music countdown from 1988. That summer was one of those "big" summers in my life. It was the summer before my freshman year, and the last summer I really got to just be a kid and not have any responsibilities. At the same time, I was fourteen-years-old, so I was given a lot of freedom. I spent most days on my bike visiting friends, or they were at my house. And because I love music, hearing those songs again took me right back to that summer 31 years ago. Wow.
Lots of memories floating around today.
As I was out and about, I couldn't help but notice all the cute spring clothes that are out. And when I say cute, I mean for little kids. So, so many cute little outfits. Oh goodness, it really, really tugged at my heartstrings. I so very much miss buying cute little outfits for my cute little kids. I love, absolutely love, everyday, watching my kids grow up, and seeing them develop into the people they are becoming. It's just that it all happens so fast.
While running errands in the car, I was listening to a music countdown from 1988. That summer was one of those "big" summers in my life. It was the summer before my freshman year, and the last summer I really got to just be a kid and not have any responsibilities. At the same time, I was fourteen-years-old, so I was given a lot of freedom. I spent most days on my bike visiting friends, or they were at my house. And because I love music, hearing those songs again took me right back to that summer 31 years ago. Wow.
Lots of memories floating around today.
Friday, March 22, 2019
She was disappointed it didn't work out
Several weeks ago Catherine brought home a paper that had information about a trip to Italy. It was going to take place next summer, and would be a tour of Italian cities. Because it was with her Cooking class, it would involve cooking various Italian foods with various Italian techniques. Since my mother-in-law in an Italian Home-ec teacher (retired), the family was very excited about this opportunity for Catherine.
The parent meeting was to be held two weeks ago. At the last minute, we received word that the meeting was canceled. We hadn't heard any word about rescheduling, so Catherine asked the teacher about it. It turns out the trip is being postponed for a year. Even though Catherine would have been out of school for a year, the teacher assured her she was welcome to come back and join along. We all agreed that was less than ideal, having a nearly 20-year-old travel with students who may be much younger. We've encouraged her, once she picks a college, to look into seeing what travel abroad opportunities will be available. Undoubtedly, something will pop up for her. Given her interest in cooking and the family's Italian ties, she was especially excited about this, and is disappointed it didn't work out. I really hate when my kids are disappointed, but I know that is part of life. Still...ugh.
The parent meeting was to be held two weeks ago. At the last minute, we received word that the meeting was canceled. We hadn't heard any word about rescheduling, so Catherine asked the teacher about it. It turns out the trip is being postponed for a year. Even though Catherine would have been out of school for a year, the teacher assured her she was welcome to come back and join along. We all agreed that was less than ideal, having a nearly 20-year-old travel with students who may be much younger. We've encouraged her, once she picks a college, to look into seeing what travel abroad opportunities will be available. Undoubtedly, something will pop up for her. Given her interest in cooking and the family's Italian ties, she was especially excited about this, and is disappointed it didn't work out. I really hate when my kids are disappointed, but I know that is part of life. Still...ugh.
I'm going to need some time off to recover from our weekend
Today is Friday, and as I tell students, "Friday makes everything better!" I firmly believe that, but I'm not going to lie about this weekend. It's insanely busy. I'm not stating that because I am so proud we are going to be able to accomplish it all. Honestly, I'm a little appalled that this weekend is this busy. But, some of the things are out of our control, and it is what it is. While I would prefer this weekend be all about basketball, that just isn't going to happen.
After school today, Thomas goes straight to set construction until 8:00 this evening. Andrew and I will be leaving for my hometown to attend the funeral visitation of my cousin's ex-wife. Catherine needs to be at school at 6:00 for a charity volleyball tournament in which she is participating. Andrew and I are hoping to be home around 7:30 or 8:00, and hopefully the kids will be hone 9 or 9:30.
Tomorrow Andrew has to be at school at 8 to catch the 8:30 bus for his away doubleheader. Thomas has to be at the school at 8:30 for set construction. I will run some errands after dropping him off, and Catherine has to work at 9:00. I will pick Thomas up at 1:00 because we have a funeral to attend for the step-father of a colleague/friend. I will take Thomas back to set construction after, and Catherine will be off work at 3:00. Andrew will be home late afternoon sometime, but has a guys' night of trivia planned. Thomas needs picked up at 8:30.
Sunday morning we will have church, and I am the nursery volunteer. After church, I am also the Sunday School volunteer, then we have a Christian Ed committee meeting. Thomas has to be back at school at 12:30 for more set construction, and the rest of us are heading to my aunt & uncle's house to help with some yard work that needs completed. Thomas will need picked up at 8:00, and in addition to needing to make his lesson plans for the week, Andrew needs to meet with the other teacher for his night class to make plans this week's plans.
I am exhausted, and honestly, a little overwhelmed. I know that these days will pass, and I am certain we might even look back fondly and maybe even wistfully on these days. At the same time, I am a firm believer that down time is important, and we clearly don't have enough of that. Andrew and I keep telling ourselves that these are all blessings of opportunity, and know that it won't always be like this!
After school today, Thomas goes straight to set construction until 8:00 this evening. Andrew and I will be leaving for my hometown to attend the funeral visitation of my cousin's ex-wife. Catherine needs to be at school at 6:00 for a charity volleyball tournament in which she is participating. Andrew and I are hoping to be home around 7:30 or 8:00, and hopefully the kids will be hone 9 or 9:30.
Tomorrow Andrew has to be at school at 8 to catch the 8:30 bus for his away doubleheader. Thomas has to be at the school at 8:30 for set construction. I will run some errands after dropping him off, and Catherine has to work at 9:00. I will pick Thomas up at 1:00 because we have a funeral to attend for the step-father of a colleague/friend. I will take Thomas back to set construction after, and Catherine will be off work at 3:00. Andrew will be home late afternoon sometime, but has a guys' night of trivia planned. Thomas needs picked up at 8:30.
Sunday morning we will have church, and I am the nursery volunteer. After church, I am also the Sunday School volunteer, then we have a Christian Ed committee meeting. Thomas has to be back at school at 12:30 for more set construction, and the rest of us are heading to my aunt & uncle's house to help with some yard work that needs completed. Thomas will need picked up at 8:00, and in addition to needing to make his lesson plans for the week, Andrew needs to meet with the other teacher for his night class to make plans this week's plans.
I am exhausted, and honestly, a little overwhelmed. I know that these days will pass, and I am certain we might even look back fondly and maybe even wistfully on these days. At the same time, I am a firm believer that down time is important, and we clearly don't have enough of that. Andrew and I keep telling ourselves that these are all blessings of opportunity, and know that it won't always be like this!
He has officially resigned
Andrew kept saying he thought this past fall was the end of his football coaching days. I didn't particularly believe him. Someone else from the middle school had already left, and I didn't think Andrew would want to make them find two new coaches in the same year. He was hoping the that the other assistant athletic director would not want to return next year, and then he would be able to get the full contract (and pay) for that. I don't think that is going to happen though. I had told him that next year there is a step increase, so as long as there is even a little bit of a raise negotiated into the next contract, he will make what he is making now, even with giving up football. I don't think it is possible for me to work any more days then I've been woking, but we've cut some expenses and it should all be good for another year.
As he's been coaching baseball, he realized how much fun he is having. And in doing so, he has realized how much he wasn't enjoying football. This week, he finally made it official. He will no longer be coaching football. The hardest part was telling the person who has become a good friend. I'll be honest, I'm not at all sad about this. With my band volunteer job, the beginning of the school year can be especially crazy and I'm not sad that we won't have football on top of it. I'm not sad that he won't have to start practicing in early July, and I'm not sad that we'll have a few days to be able to hang out with the kids. With next year being Catherine's last year of high school, that was especially important to Andrew. He'll still have at least have of the assistant athletic director's job, but that is so much more flexible. I am looking forward to having some extra time together...something which has definitely been lacking lately!
As he's been coaching baseball, he realized how much fun he is having. And in doing so, he has realized how much he wasn't enjoying football. This week, he finally made it official. He will no longer be coaching football. The hardest part was telling the person who has become a good friend. I'll be honest, I'm not at all sad about this. With my band volunteer job, the beginning of the school year can be especially crazy and I'm not sad that we won't have football on top of it. I'm not sad that he won't have to start practicing in early July, and I'm not sad that we'll have a few days to be able to hang out with the kids. With next year being Catherine's last year of high school, that was especially important to Andrew. He'll still have at least have of the assistant athletic director's job, but that is so much more flexible. I am looking forward to having some extra time together...something which has definitely been lacking lately!
Thursday, March 21, 2019
There was no coffee!!!
Today I am working at school again. I had decided I would allow myself to buy a cup of coffee when I got to school. They started selling it sometime this school year in the cafeteria, and at $1.25 it's not a bad price. I purposely didn't drink anything at home this morning except some water so that I could enjoy the coffee first thing this morning. It was going to be a treat for today!
I got to school and pulled out my money. I was walking down the hall to the cafeteria when I faced the horrible realization...there was no coffee out for sale! What?? What the??? NOOOOOOOO!
Now fortunately, I am mature enough to realize that if this is the worst thing that happens today, it's a pretty darn good day. But ugh. I was sure looking forward to that cup of coffee!
I got to school and pulled out my money. I was walking down the hall to the cafeteria when I faced the horrible realization...there was no coffee out for sale! What?? What the??? NOOOOOOOO!
Now fortunately, I am mature enough to realize that if this is the worst thing that happens today, it's a pretty darn good day. But ugh. I was sure looking forward to that cup of coffee!
Wednesday, March 20, 2019
So many requests for prayers
Oh goodness. It's been a heck of a start on this Wednesday morning. One of the very first things I learned this morning is that the ex-wife of one of my cousin's passed away last night. I have not yet learned any details, but she was my age and leaves behind three children, the youngest of whom is only eight-years-old. The next thing I learned is that two middle school students in this town were seriously injured in an explosion in town. One of the students is critically injured and was care flighted to a children's hospital. I am at school today, in for Andrew who isn't feeling well. I am in a room full of teenagers, whom I care about. And yet, I've learned in a nearby school district, of the suicide of a young 15-year-old...the same age as Thomas. While I've prayed, and prayed for his family, friends, and community, as well as the teenagers in our own building. It is such an incredibly helpless feeling. The young man wasn't on drugs or from a rough family. He was struggling and was getting help, and yet it wasn't enough. I think I need to stop reading the news today. There have been several fatal car accidents in the area. One happened Sunday evening and involved a drunk driver going the wrong way on the interstate and wiping out an entire family. There just seems to be so much senseless sadness all around lately.
In spite of all the overwhelming emotions, I will pray and pray, and be grateful I can do so.
In spite of all the overwhelming emotions, I will pray and pray, and be grateful I can do so.
Tuesday, March 19, 2019
I made a lovely family dinner, but ate alone
My meal planning has been working very well. I've been pleased that we are having decent dinners. It's been great because not only do I not have to think about what to have for dinner each day, I can make sure I have the ingredients on hand and we can actually have decent meals. It's going well.
Yesterday, Catherine was scheduled to work until 7, and Andrew was working at school for an athletic event. I had thawed pork chops, and had decided I would plan to have them ready in the 7:15-7:30 range. I was going to make stuffing to go with it, and green beans. I found a fairly simply baked pork chop recipe. I'll be honest, they were sooooo good. I was so pleased.
But of course, I ate dinner alone. Thomas was sick, but wouldn't eat something like that if you paid him. Catherine got confused about her work schedule, and didn't get home until after 8. Andrew was later than I expected and it was nearly 8:30 before he got home. It was disappointing to have such a great meal (I even ate second helpings!) and not be able to share it with anyone. It was nice though, to have a meal ready for Catherine and Andrew when they got home.
Tonight I have a meeting at 6:30 and hope to work at the church before. Dinner is supposed to be grilled cheese, but maybe it will be last Friday's not-cooked meal of Tuna Casserole. I really enjoy having things written so there are options already on my mind!
Yesterday, Catherine was scheduled to work until 7, and Andrew was working at school for an athletic event. I had thawed pork chops, and had decided I would plan to have them ready in the 7:15-7:30 range. I was going to make stuffing to go with it, and green beans. I found a fairly simply baked pork chop recipe. I'll be honest, they were sooooo good. I was so pleased.
But of course, I ate dinner alone. Thomas was sick, but wouldn't eat something like that if you paid him. Catherine got confused about her work schedule, and didn't get home until after 8. Andrew was later than I expected and it was nearly 8:30 before he got home. It was disappointing to have such a great meal (I even ate second helpings!) and not be able to share it with anyone. It was nice though, to have a meal ready for Catherine and Andrew when they got home.
Tonight I have a meeting at 6:30 and hope to work at the church before. Dinner is supposed to be grilled cheese, but maybe it will be last Friday's not-cooked meal of Tuna Casserole. I really enjoy having things written so there are options already on my mind!
Monday, March 18, 2019
Monday morning in the middle of March
Another week has arrived, and we are officially in the middle of March. We are still waiting for the "lamb" portion of the month, but at least this week appears to be a little less "lion."
I'll be honest, emotionally I had a rough weekend. I wasn't just emotional, I was truly, deeply, sad. I'm not entirely certain that I am over it yet, but I do feel better today. I am trying however, not to panic about the work situation. I am currently off tomorrow and Wednesday, and two days again next week. That is really more time off than I would like. And I try to tell myself that I should enjoy those days and it's okay, but right now I am only scheduled for four days the entire month of April. That is unheard of! There are only 42 days left in the year, and I would be fine working almost all of them. At the same time there is nothing I can do about it, and I just try to lift my worries up.
Thomas is still home sick today. Since it is just a cold and he is old enough, Andrew and I both came into work today. While I have absolute complete confidence that he will be fine without us, it also completely breaks my heart that I am not there with him. My most important job in the entire world is being the mother of my children, and since I'm not there, it feels like I'm not doing a very good job of it. I know that my days of mothering 24/7 are drawing to a rapid close, and I hate that I'm not there for him right now.
I think that is at the crux of many of my emotions. I'm feeling a little lost in terms of identity right now. I've been a mom for so long, and I'm not entirely sure what I am supposed to do next. I love, absolutely love my job as a substitute teacher, but it doesn't pay a lot. I've been fine with that while I've focused on being mom, but it as that winds down so does the benefits of this job. I know that in about 18 months or so I should be looking for something a little more stable and "permanent", but leaving this makes me sad as well. Oh goodness, so many emotions.
I am hoping with some nicer weather this week I can get outside a little bit, and I need to start working out again. Hopefully I'll feel my mood start to lift!
I'll be honest, emotionally I had a rough weekend. I wasn't just emotional, I was truly, deeply, sad. I'm not entirely certain that I am over it yet, but I do feel better today. I am trying however, not to panic about the work situation. I am currently off tomorrow and Wednesday, and two days again next week. That is really more time off than I would like. And I try to tell myself that I should enjoy those days and it's okay, but right now I am only scheduled for four days the entire month of April. That is unheard of! There are only 42 days left in the year, and I would be fine working almost all of them. At the same time there is nothing I can do about it, and I just try to lift my worries up.
Thomas is still home sick today. Since it is just a cold and he is old enough, Andrew and I both came into work today. While I have absolute complete confidence that he will be fine without us, it also completely breaks my heart that I am not there with him. My most important job in the entire world is being the mother of my children, and since I'm not there, it feels like I'm not doing a very good job of it. I know that my days of mothering 24/7 are drawing to a rapid close, and I hate that I'm not there for him right now.
I think that is at the crux of many of my emotions. I'm feeling a little lost in terms of identity right now. I've been a mom for so long, and I'm not entirely sure what I am supposed to do next. I love, absolutely love my job as a substitute teacher, but it doesn't pay a lot. I've been fine with that while I've focused on being mom, but it as that winds down so does the benefits of this job. I know that in about 18 months or so I should be looking for something a little more stable and "permanent", but leaving this makes me sad as well. Oh goodness, so many emotions.
I am hoping with some nicer weather this week I can get outside a little bit, and I need to start working out again. Hopefully I'll feel my mood start to lift!
Sunday, March 17, 2019
Sunday afternoon in our house
Our exciting family meal at our favorite restaurant has been postponed again. Thomas is sick. I could tell Friday evening that a cough was beginning to happen. The good news is that at this point, it doesn't seem to be anything more than a cough/cold. He does though, not do well with respiratory things. We left the decision up to him, and he just doesn't feel up to it. At this point, I would say the chances of him going to school tomorrow are less than 50%, but hopefully the cold medicine will continue to work and even if he does stay home, he'll be able to stay home and Andrew and I can still go to work.
Our house is cluttered. Because our dryer isn't working, we have drying racks throughout the house. Yesterday I had to wash towels, and it is especially difficult trying to dry those. I can't help but feel it is difficult to avoid having a cluttered head and a cluttered heart when our house is this cluttered.
We have another busy week, and next weekend is going to be even crazier!
Our house is cluttered. Because our dryer isn't working, we have drying racks throughout the house. Yesterday I had to wash towels, and it is especially difficult trying to dry those. I can't help but feel it is difficult to avoid having a cluttered head and a cluttered heart when our house is this cluttered.
We have another busy week, and next weekend is going to be even crazier!
Friday, March 15, 2019
Pi day can be celebrated any day!
Yesterday was Pi Day (3.14) which of course has become pie day. As you can imagine, the math department at school really gets into it! However, Catherine had to work until 8:00 last night, and Andrew had a meeting before going straight to his night class he is teaching, and I had a meeting at church as well. Not only were we not eating dinner together, Andrew wasn't even eating dinner at home. I wasn't about to have a pie without having dinner.
Today Catherine and I ran to the grocery after school, and came home with a pie. Andrew's game was cancelled for the evening, so he and I are going to grab something to eat while the other two go to a school event and eat there. We will be saving the pie for dessert tomorrow evening after our potato soup. It's never a bad day to celebrate when you are celebrating with pie!
Today Catherine and I ran to the grocery after school, and came home with a pie. Andrew's game was cancelled for the evening, so he and I are going to grab something to eat while the other two go to a school event and eat there. We will be saving the pie for dessert tomorrow evening after our potato soup. It's never a bad day to celebrate when you are celebrating with pie!
I just want to hide at home, hug my kids, and spend time together.
It seems as though influenza is big around here right now. Apparently it is a different strain than was virulent earlier in the year, and the vaccine doesn't help. I always become panicked about things like this because Thomas can have serious trouble with respiratory diseases. Honestly, I really just want to lock ourselves in the house for the weekend, hug my kids, and just spend out weekend together. That is not our reality though.
Right after school, Catherine and I are heading to do our weekly grocery shopping. We will be home in time for her to participate in a dodge ball tournament this evening followed by a sock hop, and Thomas will also be going along. Andrew has an away baseball scrimmage.
Tomorrow Catherine has to work at 9, and Andrew will drop Thomas off at school for set construction at 9 before heading to a meeting himself. Andrew will then have practice sometime tomorrow afternoon (Saturday times always seem to be fluid), and will bring Thomas home at 5. Catherine gets off work at 4. My plan is to have some potato soup in the crock pot, and hang out and watch a movie or play some games.
Sunday we will have church, and late that afternoon we will all go to Cincinnati to celebrate our family by eating at our favorite restaurant. I am so excited about this! We've been waiting months to try to find the opportunity, and then we had to reschedule from two weeks ago.
I know there is a decent amount of family time in this weekend, and I feel selfish for wanting more. I'm just so emotional today, and I know that is affecting how I think. I also know that my fear and anxiety are higher than they usually are, and I need to find a way to work on getting those back under control. My life is very blessed, and I just need to get a grip on my emotions!
Right after school, Catherine and I are heading to do our weekly grocery shopping. We will be home in time for her to participate in a dodge ball tournament this evening followed by a sock hop, and Thomas will also be going along. Andrew has an away baseball scrimmage.
Tomorrow Catherine has to work at 9, and Andrew will drop Thomas off at school for set construction at 9 before heading to a meeting himself. Andrew will then have practice sometime tomorrow afternoon (Saturday times always seem to be fluid), and will bring Thomas home at 5. Catherine gets off work at 4. My plan is to have some potato soup in the crock pot, and hang out and watch a movie or play some games.
Sunday we will have church, and late that afternoon we will all go to Cincinnati to celebrate our family by eating at our favorite restaurant. I am so excited about this! We've been waiting months to try to find the opportunity, and then we had to reschedule from two weeks ago.
I know there is a decent amount of family time in this weekend, and I feel selfish for wanting more. I'm just so emotional today, and I know that is affecting how I think. I also know that my fear and anxiety are higher than they usually are, and I need to find a way to work on getting those back under control. My life is very blessed, and I just need to get a grip on my emotions!
Friday morning emotions
Another week has flown by, and here we are at Friday morning again. This Friday morning is definitely filled with some emotions, and I'm sure the fact that we are all worn out only adds to my feelings.
We woke up to the international news this morning about the horrific shooting in New Zealand. There aren't enough words to express my thoughts on that. Sickening doesn't even start to describe it. I also learned about a 13-year-old in our former town who took his life. I knew this young man, and it's just so incredibly sad. We also may have lost more of the outdoor cats. Right now it seems we are only down to one hanging out around the house, and it makes me sad.
I'm feeling like it's a rough start to a crazy weekend. I'm looking forward to some very quiet time, and hopefully some prayerful time.
We woke up to the international news this morning about the horrific shooting in New Zealand. There aren't enough words to express my thoughts on that. Sickening doesn't even start to describe it. I also learned about a 13-year-old in our former town who took his life. I knew this young man, and it's just so incredibly sad. We also may have lost more of the outdoor cats. Right now it seems we are only down to one hanging out around the house, and it makes me sad.
I'm feeling like it's a rough start to a crazy weekend. I'm looking forward to some very quiet time, and hopefully some prayerful time.
Thursday, March 14, 2019
They melt my heart
My kiddos absolutely melt my heart. I needed to make sure I fill up the "kids' car" with gas after school so Catherine didn't have to worry about it when going to work this evening. Because the kids were going to beat me home, I didn't want them to be home alone if the weather was bad and not know what to do. We talked about how they needed to grab our sweet pup and head to the master bathroom. Catherine was concerned about the cats and wanted to know about putting them in the cat carrier. I told them I wasn't sure where the cat carried was, and Thomas went and found it and brought it into the house...just in case. After school, Thomas came to my classroom and said he was going home with me instead of the bus because he had both of his guitars. I said that was fine, but asked why he wanted to bring his guitars home when there was still school tomorrow. Suddenly it struck me, and I asked if he was concerned about the storms. He said he wanted the guitars home with him just in case something happened at the high school. Oh my goodness, my heart absolutely melted. The sweetness of my kids, and the sweet reminder that they are still just kids, makes my heart more full than I can even begin to describe!
**By the way, there are some really major storms happening around here, but I am certain all is going to be just fine!
**By the way, there are some really major storms happening around here, but I am certain all is going to be just fine!
I knew to expect this
This evening Andrew has a meeting after school, and then has to go straight to the night class he is teaching. It meant that he wasn't going to be able to attend the baseball scrimmage this evening. Didn't make much difference to me, he wasn't going to be home either way. Tomorrow would be practice for a couple of hours, but that's it.
However, some pretty heavy-duty storms are supposed to come through our area over the next few hours. I hate everything about spring thunderstorms, but they are a part of life, and there is nothing I can do about them. I have a meeting at the church this evening, and I discussed with the kids what they needed to do in case their was a warning while I am not home (we are already under a tornado watch). Because of the forecast, the baseball game has been changed to tomorrow. Part of me wants to yell, "NOOOOOOOOOO!" because Andrew and I were actually going to have a couple of hours to ourselves.
It is what it is though, and I knew this about baseball. Pretty much the entire schedule is TBD with the schedule released at the beginning of the season considered a guideline/suggestion kind of thing. Andrew is really enjoying coaching and I'm very grateful, but I won't lie about being a little disappointed about tomorrow evening. And undoubtedly, this is only the beginning of the changes!
However, some pretty heavy-duty storms are supposed to come through our area over the next few hours. I hate everything about spring thunderstorms, but they are a part of life, and there is nothing I can do about them. I have a meeting at the church this evening, and I discussed with the kids what they needed to do in case their was a warning while I am not home (we are already under a tornado watch). Because of the forecast, the baseball game has been changed to tomorrow. Part of me wants to yell, "NOOOOOOOOOO!" because Andrew and I were actually going to have a couple of hours to ourselves.
It is what it is though, and I knew this about baseball. Pretty much the entire schedule is TBD with the schedule released at the beginning of the season considered a guideline/suggestion kind of thing. Andrew is really enjoying coaching and I'm very grateful, but I won't lie about being a little disappointed about tomorrow evening. And undoubtedly, this is only the beginning of the changes!
Wednesday, March 13, 2019
An unexpected job today
I had no sub job for today. I thought something might come up this morning, but Andrew and the kids left and there was still nothing. I went back to bed, and when I got up I had just missed a call a few minutes before. There was a teacher who needed to be out the rest of the week. Although I couldn't help with tomorrow or Friday because I am already scheduled, I was happy to come in and get a few hours in! Always grateful for the opportunity to earn some additional income!
Tuesday, March 12, 2019
Second cup of coffee and a nap
I can definitely tell yesterday was the Monday after Daylight Savings Time. I came home and decided to make myself a cup of coffee. I decided it was necessary. Apparently it wasn't enough though, because after the cup of coffee, I went in and took a half hour nap. That felt sooooo good. I was a little concerned that the combination of the two would keep me up later than I would like to be. Not so though! At 9:30, I was fighting to stay awake and so I went to bed early. And as an even added bonus, I wasn't at the high school today so I got to sleep in an additional 45 minutes. I actually woke up feeling so very rested. I put in my half day at an elementary, and now I'm off work for the day. Enjoying a warm, sunny day, and hoping my emotions from lately will adjust themselves!
Monday, March 11, 2019
Another weekend behind us
I have four more days of the this medication that I am on. I am hoping once it is finished, my emotions will even out again. One of the side effects is weepiness, and I feel like I have plenty of that in spades!
The moment that most sticks out in my mind was Friday evening. None of us had plans or anywhere to be, and although I ran some errands, I was home by 5:30. I was so pleased to spend the evening with my family! We all decided we wanted to watch a movie, and Andrew decided we should watch my favorite, Bull Durham. I was pretty sure the kids wouldn't like it, but it turned out they really did. There was one moment when we were all sitting their laughing, and I vividly remember the thought I had at that time. I was so incredibly grateful to be sharing that moment with my kids, and yet I was heartbroken that on a Friday evening, my kids had no plans with friends. It still makes me emotional to think about it.
I am frustrated that the Christmas tubs are still sitting in our sunroom. That's right, the second full weekend of March is upon us, and Christmas is still not completely put away. I also need to work on boxing up other things that belong to Robert, but it's really tough when Christmas takes up the entire space. I've been trying to hang things in our hallway for over a month. The problem is, I need Andrew's help, and he is ridiculously busy. I'm not angry, but it makes me feel like I can't accomplish things. Again, my emotions get the better of me.
We got the estimate on the permanent fix for our flooding crawl space. Unfortunately, (and we don't know why yet) the estimate came in triple what the original guess had been. That means in order to not have to think about this, it would cost us $3000. That is not happening right now! We have a fix that works just fine, it just means we have to make sure we are paying attention and take care of it ourselves. The bill for them coming out in the first place was also twice what we thought it would be. And now the dryer has issues.
Should I go out and get a full time job? Andrew and I both agree that isn't what would be best for our family. He even agreed there was no way I could've started subbing earlier than I did. We had to deal with Robert and his decisions, and unsupervised time because I was on a different schedule than him was not an option.
Overall, the weekend flew by entirely too fast. They all do though. Hopefully, the end of medication and the increased daylight will help to lift my mood. Sometimes I think I am being tested in this season of Lent. If that is the case, and these things are the biggest tests in my life, I think my life has been pretty good. And I am working very, very hard on having faith that everything will work out!
The moment that most sticks out in my mind was Friday evening. None of us had plans or anywhere to be, and although I ran some errands, I was home by 5:30. I was so pleased to spend the evening with my family! We all decided we wanted to watch a movie, and Andrew decided we should watch my favorite, Bull Durham. I was pretty sure the kids wouldn't like it, but it turned out they really did. There was one moment when we were all sitting their laughing, and I vividly remember the thought I had at that time. I was so incredibly grateful to be sharing that moment with my kids, and yet I was heartbroken that on a Friday evening, my kids had no plans with friends. It still makes me emotional to think about it.
I am frustrated that the Christmas tubs are still sitting in our sunroom. That's right, the second full weekend of March is upon us, and Christmas is still not completely put away. I also need to work on boxing up other things that belong to Robert, but it's really tough when Christmas takes up the entire space. I've been trying to hang things in our hallway for over a month. The problem is, I need Andrew's help, and he is ridiculously busy. I'm not angry, but it makes me feel like I can't accomplish things. Again, my emotions get the better of me.
We got the estimate on the permanent fix for our flooding crawl space. Unfortunately, (and we don't know why yet) the estimate came in triple what the original guess had been. That means in order to not have to think about this, it would cost us $3000. That is not happening right now! We have a fix that works just fine, it just means we have to make sure we are paying attention and take care of it ourselves. The bill for them coming out in the first place was also twice what we thought it would be. And now the dryer has issues.
Should I go out and get a full time job? Andrew and I both agree that isn't what would be best for our family. He even agreed there was no way I could've started subbing earlier than I did. We had to deal with Robert and his decisions, and unsupervised time because I was on a different schedule than him was not an option.
Overall, the weekend flew by entirely too fast. They all do though. Hopefully, the end of medication and the increased daylight will help to lift my mood. Sometimes I think I am being tested in this season of Lent. If that is the case, and these things are the biggest tests in my life, I think my life has been pretty good. And I am working very, very hard on having faith that everything will work out!
The Monday morning after Daylight Savings time begins
That is exactly what today is, and I think it is one of the toughest days of the year. I hadn't yet changed the clock in our car, so when Catherine and I got in this morning there it was staring at us...5:30A.M. While I understand it was 6:30, since the clock hadn't been changed yet it was more like a slap in the face. It's just not my most favorite day.
Yesterday Andrew and Thomas were going to attend a Maple Syrup Festival which meant no church. It also meant though, that they both decided in the morning they would rather sleep, and so we did. Andrew made pancakes at home for the kids, then I took them to see my mom and grandmother. Neither of them had seen Robert's (now my mom's) dog since we had taken him to her, and we enjoyed our afternoon of visiting. When we got home Catherine was asked to cover for a co-worker and off she went. Andrew agreed to take my place as the youth group volunteer for the evening, and I will forever be eternally grateful. It worked out well for him also, as it gave him two solid hours to do nothing but grade. Meanwhile, I was home doing laundry when the dryer decided to stop working. Ugh. We kind of knew it was coming, but it's still a pain. Fortunately I have drying racks everywhere, and it will work out eventually.
This week is baseball and work and set construction, and a band activity and goodness knows what else. But at the end of the week, we get to celebrate our family at our favorite restaurant. We are very excited!
Yesterday Andrew and Thomas were going to attend a Maple Syrup Festival which meant no church. It also meant though, that they both decided in the morning they would rather sleep, and so we did. Andrew made pancakes at home for the kids, then I took them to see my mom and grandmother. Neither of them had seen Robert's (now my mom's) dog since we had taken him to her, and we enjoyed our afternoon of visiting. When we got home Catherine was asked to cover for a co-worker and off she went. Andrew agreed to take my place as the youth group volunteer for the evening, and I will forever be eternally grateful. It worked out well for him also, as it gave him two solid hours to do nothing but grade. Meanwhile, I was home doing laundry when the dryer decided to stop working. Ugh. We kind of knew it was coming, but it's still a pain. Fortunately I have drying racks everywhere, and it will work out eventually.
This week is baseball and work and set construction, and a band activity and goodness knows what else. But at the end of the week, we get to celebrate our family at our favorite restaurant. We are very excited!
Sunday, March 10, 2019
I was angry
Last evening, I'll be honest, I was angry with God. I don't get that way very often. In fact, I could probably count on one hand the number of times I've felt that way. But yesterday was one of them. Ultimately though, it led to much, much prayer, and I think that is a good thing.
None of my kids are social butterflies. None of them ever have been. Catherine usually had a good friend along the way, but she has always been content to hang out at home and just be with us. Robert was a social nightmare. Thomas had a sweet group at our former school, and Andrew and I mistakenly assumed that he would replicate that here. It has not only not been the case, but it has been the exact opposite. Many of his social interactions remind us of days with Robert, and that brings much concern.
Thomas is working on the set construction for the high school musical. The week before we had him pack a lunch because it is an all day thing. He mentioned most students had gone out, but he stayed behind and ate his lunch. Yesterday, he said he was packing some snacks, but was planning to join others to go out. When he got home, it turned out he hadn't eaten lunch at all. He said he had asked around, but the others said they didn't have room in their vehicles for him. He stayed behind with two other young men, and since he hadn't packed his own lunch, he hadn't eaten any lunch. My heart broke beyond words. I know both of the other men, and I told Thomas we would've been happy to either bring a pizza in for them or to have taken them to grab something. There is always a chance it could be financial for the other boys, but knowing them I suspect it was a social thing as well. While outwardly Thomas didn't seem devastated, I also know teenagers don't always share their pain with their parents.
I needed to go take a shower, and I cried. I was angry at God. How could He let this happen? As Andrew said yesterday, he is tired of this always happening to our kids. I don't know what Andrew and I could've done differently over the years, but whatever it is I wish we'd done it. My heart hurts more than I can put into words.
I prayed and prayed later last evening. Not just for my kids to have friends, but for my kids to be content. I prayed for God to use this as a lesson for us...for all of our family. I pray for peace for all of us, and I pray for all those who are in situations like my kiddos. Ironically, the prayer concern for today in our daily devotional book is for those who are lost and lonely. A very, very timely prayer concern.
None of my kids are social butterflies. None of them ever have been. Catherine usually had a good friend along the way, but she has always been content to hang out at home and just be with us. Robert was a social nightmare. Thomas had a sweet group at our former school, and Andrew and I mistakenly assumed that he would replicate that here. It has not only not been the case, but it has been the exact opposite. Many of his social interactions remind us of days with Robert, and that brings much concern.
Thomas is working on the set construction for the high school musical. The week before we had him pack a lunch because it is an all day thing. He mentioned most students had gone out, but he stayed behind and ate his lunch. Yesterday, he said he was packing some snacks, but was planning to join others to go out. When he got home, it turned out he hadn't eaten lunch at all. He said he had asked around, but the others said they didn't have room in their vehicles for him. He stayed behind with two other young men, and since he hadn't packed his own lunch, he hadn't eaten any lunch. My heart broke beyond words. I know both of the other men, and I told Thomas we would've been happy to either bring a pizza in for them or to have taken them to grab something. There is always a chance it could be financial for the other boys, but knowing them I suspect it was a social thing as well. While outwardly Thomas didn't seem devastated, I also know teenagers don't always share their pain with their parents.
I needed to go take a shower, and I cried. I was angry at God. How could He let this happen? As Andrew said yesterday, he is tired of this always happening to our kids. I don't know what Andrew and I could've done differently over the years, but whatever it is I wish we'd done it. My heart hurts more than I can put into words.
I prayed and prayed later last evening. Not just for my kids to have friends, but for my kids to be content. I prayed for God to use this as a lesson for us...for all of our family. I pray for peace for all of us, and I pray for all those who are in situations like my kiddos. Ironically, the prayer concern for today in our daily devotional book is for those who are lost and lonely. A very, very timely prayer concern.
Saturday, March 9, 2019
Time to put away winter
If only this could actually be done! If only we could just decide we are "done" and move right on along. Doesn't work that way though.
In my house however, it is time to put away winter. It is still to early for Easter decorations in my opinion, but it is time to put away the snowmen and other winter decor. I don't really "do" St. Patrick's Day, and I'm not even sure I really have much spring stuff, but maybe that's okay too. Maybe for now, we can just live a little more uncluttered life!
In my house however, it is time to put away winter. It is still to early for Easter decorations in my opinion, but it is time to put away the snowmen and other winter decor. I don't really "do" St. Patrick's Day, and I'm not even sure I really have much spring stuff, but maybe that's okay too. Maybe for now, we can just live a little more uncluttered life!
Friday, March 8, 2019
Pretty much full time
When I get done today, I will have worked 38.25 hours this week. That is pretty much full time, no matter how you look at it! It is still probably 11-12 hours fewer than Andrew worked this week, and he has work meetings and practice again tomorrow...and of course planning for next week. I understand this is what we do, but I also understand that this is why we are tired. It also explains why there are loads upon loads of laundry to be done, and why our house could use a good cleaning and organizing...and why meals are a bit of an issue.
It won't always be like this though. One day, we may be working as much or even more at paying jobs, but the laundry piles will be much smaller. Dinners will be less of an issue, and we'll just have ore free time. And I know when those days come, I'm going to miss this crazy phase of life. It will be so quiet around home then...probably too quiet!
It won't always be like this though. One day, we may be working as much or even more at paying jobs, but the laundry piles will be much smaller. Dinners will be less of an issue, and we'll just have ore free time. And I know when those days come, I'm going to miss this crazy phase of life. It will be so quiet around home then...probably too quiet!
We are in school today
Not only are we in school today, we are in school on time. While I expected to be here, I am a little disappointed that we didn't get some extra sleep. However, not only did we not get inches of snow, we barely received more than a dusting.
I could've really used those extra two hours of sleep. The past two nights I've been up until 10:30. That isn't a good idea on good weeks, and this medication I'm on only makes it even more necessary to get extra sleep. Plus, I've worked every day this week so there hasn't been any extra sleep in the mornings.
Baseball practice is cancelled this evening. Catherine is off work...none of us have anywhere we need to be. I have some errands to run, but I am giving serious consideration to waiting until tomorrow to do them. Tomorrow Catherine works all day, Thomas has musical set construction most of the day, and Andrew has a meeting tomorrow morning and baseball practice tomorrow afternoon. Part of me would prefer to be home all day cleaning the house, but the thought that I might be able to go to bed at 8:00 this evening is also appealing.
Of course Saturday evening we lose an hour of sleep. Just what I need! Andrew is taking the kids to breakfast at a maple syrup festival, and then I am taking them to see my mom. Sunday evening I am the youth group volunteer, and then we get to get up Monday and do it all over again!
I could've really used those extra two hours of sleep. The past two nights I've been up until 10:30. That isn't a good idea on good weeks, and this medication I'm on only makes it even more necessary to get extra sleep. Plus, I've worked every day this week so there hasn't been any extra sleep in the mornings.
Baseball practice is cancelled this evening. Catherine is off work...none of us have anywhere we need to be. I have some errands to run, but I am giving serious consideration to waiting until tomorrow to do them. Tomorrow Catherine works all day, Thomas has musical set construction most of the day, and Andrew has a meeting tomorrow morning and baseball practice tomorrow afternoon. Part of me would prefer to be home all day cleaning the house, but the thought that I might be able to go to bed at 8:00 this evening is also appealing.
Of course Saturday evening we lose an hour of sleep. Just what I need! Andrew is taking the kids to breakfast at a maple syrup festival, and then I am taking them to see my mom. Sunday evening I am the youth group volunteer, and then we get to get up Monday and do it all over again!
Thursday, March 7, 2019
It feels like a Friday...and that may not bode well
I kept feeling like yesterday felt like a Thursday. Of course it was only Wednesday, but it just "felt" like Thursday. It felt like today would be Friday. And of course it is only Thursday.
Today however, has a Friday feel to it. While it is usually disappointing to find out it is earlier in the week than I "think" it is, I have a feeling it might be subconscious. We are expected to get about 2" of snow tonight. Certainly nothing major, but it is expected to fall mostly between 2AM & 7AM...the "sweet spot" of snow day timing according to my husband. Of course I am scheduled to work again tomorrow so I don't want the day off, but again, absolutely nothing I can do about it. I am holding out hope for a two hour delay, but I guess we'll just see what happens!
Today however, has a Friday feel to it. While it is usually disappointing to find out it is earlier in the week than I "think" it is, I have a feeling it might be subconscious. We are expected to get about 2" of snow tonight. Certainly nothing major, but it is expected to fall mostly between 2AM & 7AM...the "sweet spot" of snow day timing according to my husband. Of course I am scheduled to work again tomorrow so I don't want the day off, but again, absolutely nothing I can do about it. I am holding out hope for a two hour delay, but I guess we'll just see what happens!
High school band concert
Last evening Catherine and Thomas had a high school band concert. I can't believe that both my babies are in high school. I loved watching Thomas sit right behind Catherine (it just happened to work out that way in the band), and I loved how grown up they both looked. These days are flying by so quickly, and I love sharing these days with them!
Wednesday, March 6, 2019
I hate cooking
There, I said it. I hate cooking. Always have. I hate baking, I hate grilling, I hate making food. I don't like mixing, stirring, measuring, seasoning, none of it. This is not new information. This is the reality of our house. However, I also accepted that I am the parent who has been home, and I'm the one that does the grocery shopping. I get it.
Now however, I am often working 25-30 hours a week. Still not full time, and with all of my husband's athletic responsibilities, still many fewer hours than Andrew. However, before I could accept it was something I needed to do, and since I was home it didn't really get in the way of other things. This is no longer true. I am still the one who manages everything in the household, and it is in addition to the working hours. I am not complaining about this because again, it is still fewer hours than Andrew. However, if I'm doing all the cooking, other things aren't getting done.
Something has to change. Honestly, because I hate food prep, I'm not good about planning ahead. Andrew and I have got to come to some changes. My grocery shopping lately has simply been processed foods and things to make quickly. I don't know if the answer is to have Andrew plan and I do the shopping and then we both come up with a plan for cooking, or if the answer is we try to plan together...I don't know what the answer is. I do know though, that something has to change for us to have healthier and more satisfying meals!
Now however, I am often working 25-30 hours a week. Still not full time, and with all of my husband's athletic responsibilities, still many fewer hours than Andrew. However, before I could accept it was something I needed to do, and since I was home it didn't really get in the way of other things. This is no longer true. I am still the one who manages everything in the household, and it is in addition to the working hours. I am not complaining about this because again, it is still fewer hours than Andrew. However, if I'm doing all the cooking, other things aren't getting done.
Something has to change. Honestly, because I hate food prep, I'm not good about planning ahead. Andrew and I have got to come to some changes. My grocery shopping lately has simply been processed foods and things to make quickly. I don't know if the answer is to have Andrew plan and I do the shopping and then we both come up with a plan for cooking, or if the answer is we try to plan together...I don't know what the answer is. I do know though, that something has to change for us to have healthier and more satisfying meals!
The difference between snow in November and snow in March
I vividly remember the first flurries of the season last fall. It was an afternoon in November, and I was subbing in an English classroom. While we were all excited about seeing the snow, one young lady named Abby was particularly excited. She had lived in Florida for the last several years, and was excited about being able to see snow again. It's always fun to see the first snow of the year, even if we just saw it the year before. November snow is fun.
Then there is snow in March. Flurries are irritating, snow storms are nearly infuriating. By this point of the "snow season" we are all just ready for spring and warmer weather. We are due to get 2-3" of snow tomorrow evening into Friday morning. I will be so displeased if I lose another day of pay because of snow. Nothing I can do about it though. Snow in March is just not the same level of "joy" as snow in November!
Then there is snow in March. Flurries are irritating, snow storms are nearly infuriating. By this point of the "snow season" we are all just ready for spring and warmer weather. We are due to get 2-3" of snow tomorrow evening into Friday morning. I will be so displeased if I lose another day of pay because of snow. Nothing I can do about it though. Snow in March is just not the same level of "joy" as snow in November!
Tuesday, March 5, 2019
I am tired of being tired
This sounds like a complaining post, and to a certain extent it is. It isn't about our life or our schedules though...it's more about growing older. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful that I get to grow older. After all, as my husband always says, "It beats the alternative!" So true!
Last spring I was exhausted every day. I would take a nap of 20 minutes or so, literally every day. This summer, I was diagnosed with a thyroid condition and began a daily regimen of medication. I accept I will pretty much need to take this pill everyday for the rest of my life. I was astounded (and grateful for) how much better I felt. Not that I had felt lousy, but I was definitely not nearly as tired. I continue to have quarterly blood draws for now to monitor it. The last one was two months ago, and I've remained stable since the end of last summer.
Right now though, I'm taking some medication (most likely only for a couple of weeks) that is really knocking me down. I was advised to take it in the evening because it can make me drowsy, and that is an understatement as far as I'm concerned. It also makes me very emotional as it is designed to mess with my hormones. I'll be honest, it feels pretty draining right now, and I'm tired of feeling tired!
Last spring I was exhausted every day. I would take a nap of 20 minutes or so, literally every day. This summer, I was diagnosed with a thyroid condition and began a daily regimen of medication. I accept I will pretty much need to take this pill everyday for the rest of my life. I was astounded (and grateful for) how much better I felt. Not that I had felt lousy, but I was definitely not nearly as tired. I continue to have quarterly blood draws for now to monitor it. The last one was two months ago, and I've remained stable since the end of last summer.
Right now though, I'm taking some medication (most likely only for a couple of weeks) that is really knocking me down. I was advised to take it in the evening because it can make me drowsy, and that is an understatement as far as I'm concerned. It also makes me very emotional as it is designed to mess with my hormones. I'll be honest, it feels pretty draining right now, and I'm tired of feeling tired!
Sometimes it just needs to be something else
Thomas spent all weekend working on a poster for his English class. I was so impressed with all his work and he did a great job. He carried it around with him yesterday, and I actually had him for class right after his English class. I asked why he hadn't turned it in, and he said he had to write some paragraphs as a reflection. I knew the deadline was drawing near, so last evening I asked him to sit and write the paragraphs so everything would be done. He did so, and to the best of my knowledge, it is done!
I also asked if he was turning the poster in with the paragraphs. He said he was not. He hadn't understood the directions at first, and the poster wasn't part of the assignment. I asked what he did with the poster, and he said he just threw it away. I told him how much I had enjoyed the work he had done on the poster and that i was so pleased with it. I was sorry he had thrown it away.
And then I began to quietly cry. I am not upset with the teacher at all. I am certain she was not mean or derisive when telling Thomas he needed to do the paragraphs instead. I am equally certain this had been discussed before, and Thomas hadn't bothered to make sure he completely understood the assignment. I am also equally certain that this entire situation hurt him, and in some ways just reaffirmed his feeling that school isn't for him. I can only imagine how it felt to spend hours upon hours creating something, that in the end had no worth. I think it did because it is something he created, but that isn't going to help the grade.
It was really en eye opening experience for me about how Thomas has to navigate through school. Ever since pre-school he has been super creative and wanted to do things his way. I have always attempted to guide Thomas's creativity to fit inside the expectations of the school assignments because that is part of life. Life has suggestions, guidelines, and even RULES. Thomas has to figure out how to navigate this part of life. And yet, it has also made me realize that Thomas deals with something like this. Every. Single. Day. It isn't that he doesn't want to do the work, or that he wants to do it incorrectly. His brain just thinks completely differently from many people, and his brain doesn't fit in the confines of school on many days. It made me realize that school is such a struggle for him, and it broke my heart. In fact, I'm about to cry sitting here writing about it. I can't stand the thought of the day when my sweet kiddos are no longer around every day and are on their own. At the same time, I know that Thomas will probably be grateful when the struggle of school is behind him.
Monday, March 4, 2019
Luke Perry
I just heard the astounding news that Luke Perry has passed away. After Kristoff St. John passed away a few weeks ago, I began to realize that we are reaching that age. Childhood idols are aging, just as are we. Honestly, like many of my generation, Beverly Hills, 90210 was such a part of our lives. I had a group of friends so very similar (although much, much less wealthy!) to the characters on the show. I think the money just made it even more dramatic.
One of my best friends, to this day, reminds me of Dylan from that show. I can't even begin to describe it. Sometimes they even looked alike. Not because my friend was imitating him, it's just the way he was. This news seems so shocking.
One of my best friends, to this day, reminds me of Dylan from that show. I can't even begin to describe it. Sometimes they even looked alike. Not because my friend was imitating him, it's just the way he was. This news seems so shocking.
Making some summer plans
We are beginning to work on making some summer plans. Our kids are growing up so quickly, and I want to make memories while we can. We've already had one fly the nest, and I'm not in a hurry for the other two to follow along.
The Cincinnati Reds have a promotion on several Sundays where the purchase of one ticket allows the purchase of up to three more tickets at half price. We found two Sunday games we wanted to attend, but realized Thomas has a commitment for one of them. We decided it would be a fun date day for Andrew and me, and then we bought four tickets for the other date so we could all go. It will be fun.
We also began to talk about our summer vacation. Thomas has been texting with a cousin he never met but who is the same age. Ryan also has a twin sister, and I know she and Catherine would get along well. I contacted the family last evening, and it sounds as though we can make this work for a visit this summer. They usually spend their summer at a vacation house owned in their family, and we are invited to join them for a couple of days. It will be so fun to visit with them!
I also want to make some plans to do something fun with my mom, but I'm not entirely certain what that will be yet. I'm looking forward to these days!
The Cincinnati Reds have a promotion on several Sundays where the purchase of one ticket allows the purchase of up to three more tickets at half price. We found two Sunday games we wanted to attend, but realized Thomas has a commitment for one of them. We decided it would be a fun date day for Andrew and me, and then we bought four tickets for the other date so we could all go. It will be fun.
We also began to talk about our summer vacation. Thomas has been texting with a cousin he never met but who is the same age. Ryan also has a twin sister, and I know she and Catherine would get along well. I contacted the family last evening, and it sounds as though we can make this work for a visit this summer. They usually spend their summer at a vacation house owned in their family, and we are invited to join them for a couple of days. It will be so fun to visit with them!
I also want to make some plans to do something fun with my mom, but I'm not entirely certain what that will be yet. I'm looking forward to these days!
Keys to my grandfather's truck
I remember being a kid back in the 80's. My grandparents purchased a red and white Chevy S-10 pick up truck. That body style was one of the smaller trucks, but there were little jump seats behind the front seats. My sister and I were always small people, and while we could easily fit, I wouldn't call it a comfortable fit. That was kind of an inside joke in our family for years, as my grandparents had us take a fairly long ride shortly after they purchased the truck, and we were never in a hurry to do that again!
My grandfather developed Parkinson's disease shortly after I graduated from college, and several years later he had to end his driving. My father purchased the truck from my grandparents a year or so before my grandfather died. My father loved having that truck, and even had personalized license plates with my grandfather's initials. I drove it a couple of times when Dad had it. Eventually, Dad sold it because it just wan't feasible for him to have it anymore, and strangely enough, I saw it one day when Andrew and I were out and about. At this point the truck was over 20 years old, and there was absolutely no doubt it was the same truck.
This weekend I was going through some old things, and I found a baggy with some keys in it...keys to my grandfather's truck. There were a couple of other keys in the bag, and I have no idea what they might go to. I have no idea why these keys were all in a bag and not on a key chain, and I have no idea why I have them. It made me smile though. An of course, I kept those keys in the bag and put them right back where I found them. Some day, years from now, I'll forget I have them, I'll come across them again, and I'll get to smile about it all over again.
Sunday, March 3, 2019
A change to our Sunday afternoon plans
This afternoon was supposed to be the day we were going to take our family to our favorite restaurant and celebrate our family. It's tough to find time, but we had worked this out. And then the forecast happened. Originally they were calling for 5-8" of snow, but it looks as though we really might only get an inch or two. However, it is supposed to be worse the father south you go, and honestly, there is just no reason to take any chances. In fact, in some ways it would be even better to go on a much prettier day because we want to go to the restaurant that is on the river. Since we are now eating at home, we decided to thaw some steaks that Andrew's mother sent home, and even bought a giant cookie at the grocery. I am never sad about an afternoon at home with my awesome family!
Saturday, March 2, 2019
A quiet start to my Saturday
Andrew has a 9:15 meeting, and Thomas had to be at the school at 9:00. Catherine doesn't have to be up until 9:30, so I am enjoying a little bit of quiet time. I went to bed by 10:00 last night, so getting up at 8:00 this morning was still a good amount of sleep. I plan to do laundry and clean today, but I am enjoying a few minute of peace and quiet until then!
Friday, March 1, 2019
My thoughts on today
Overall, I have really enjoyed the day being here at school. Most days, I do! Overall, we have good teenagers. Of course, there are some who are challenging, but most of the kids are just fine.
Three of the classes I've had today are honors kids. In the last honors class of the day, many of the students come straight from my husband's class. We'd had a debate in his class on how long meat was safe in the refrigerator (I had a plan period at that time) and the conversation carried over to my class the next period. Those kids are fun.
Not every kids is awesome of course. Generally speaking, I can handle the kids that aren't angels. I just don't tolerate much crap, and the administrators, of course, support that. I also try to make sure the kids never know if they get under my skin. Can't let them have that power! I know some of the kids who are challenging come from homes that are less than ideal. They may not live with parents, or maybe the parents are there, but only physically (or not even that much). There could be economic issues, or drug issues, or illness, or you just never know what there might be. There are kids that try to appear tough and "edgy", and some of them I know are using it as a defense mechanism to try to get through life.
However, I was highly irritated when I graded papers for Andrew this morning. He was acting administrator yesterday and had a substitute teacher in his classroom. The students were assigned to look at these two articles, take a couple of notes, and write an extremely short (one sentence) opinion. They could even choose two articles from among over a hundred to read. Basically Andrew was trying to "give" the students some points just for doing the work. And there were students who turned in the paper with their name on it, and literally that was it. They had the entire period to do about 20 minutes worth of work, and they couldn't do anything at all. I was infuriated. It's hard to feel compassionate and empathetic towards those students who are given opportunity after opportunity, and choose to do absolutely nothing.
Overall, my prayers go out to today's teens. After all, they are the future!
Three of the classes I've had today are honors kids. In the last honors class of the day, many of the students come straight from my husband's class. We'd had a debate in his class on how long meat was safe in the refrigerator (I had a plan period at that time) and the conversation carried over to my class the next period. Those kids are fun.
Not every kids is awesome of course. Generally speaking, I can handle the kids that aren't angels. I just don't tolerate much crap, and the administrators, of course, support that. I also try to make sure the kids never know if they get under my skin. Can't let them have that power! I know some of the kids who are challenging come from homes that are less than ideal. They may not live with parents, or maybe the parents are there, but only physically (or not even that much). There could be economic issues, or drug issues, or illness, or you just never know what there might be. There are kids that try to appear tough and "edgy", and some of them I know are using it as a defense mechanism to try to get through life.
However, I was highly irritated when I graded papers for Andrew this morning. He was acting administrator yesterday and had a substitute teacher in his classroom. The students were assigned to look at these two articles, take a couple of notes, and write an extremely short (one sentence) opinion. They could even choose two articles from among over a hundred to read. Basically Andrew was trying to "give" the students some points just for doing the work. And there were students who turned in the paper with their name on it, and literally that was it. They had the entire period to do about 20 minutes worth of work, and they couldn't do anything at all. I was infuriated. It's hard to feel compassionate and empathetic towards those students who are given opportunity after opportunity, and choose to do absolutely nothing.
Overall, my prayers go out to today's teens. After all, they are the future!
Less than 90 minutes until the weekend is officially here
The one (and only) thing nice about leaving for work at 6:30 in the morning, is the fact that I am done by 2:30 in the afternoon. That is especially nice on a Friday, and we are almost there!
It's not exactly a care free weekend, but we do get to sleep until 8:00 both mornings, and neither evening is terribly late. This evening Catherine and Thomas are attending a dance for Best Buddies, but we should all be home by 9:00. Tomorrow Catherine works all day, and Thomas is spending all day at the high school working on set construction. Andrew has a meeting in the morning and baseball practice in the afternoon. I don't have to leave the house, and I'm hoping to get lots of laundry done, lots of cleaning done, and maybe even continue my scrapbooking marathon from last weekend. Dare to dream!
Sunday we have church and a luncheon following, then we hope to head into Cincinnati for a nice dinner for the four of us. The forecasted snow storm may get in the way of that though, so we will just have to see. And then of course, we get to begin craziness all over again on Monday!
It's not exactly a care free weekend, but we do get to sleep until 8:00 both mornings, and neither evening is terribly late. This evening Catherine and Thomas are attending a dance for Best Buddies, but we should all be home by 9:00. Tomorrow Catherine works all day, and Thomas is spending all day at the high school working on set construction. Andrew has a meeting in the morning and baseball practice in the afternoon. I don't have to leave the house, and I'm hoping to get lots of laundry done, lots of cleaning done, and maybe even continue my scrapbooking marathon from last weekend. Dare to dream!
Sunday we have church and a luncheon following, then we hope to head into Cincinnati for a nice dinner for the four of us. The forecasted snow storm may get in the way of that though, so we will just have to see. And then of course, we get to begin craziness all over again on Monday!
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