Deciding what is next

I saw a meme this morning that said to take a chance and be brave in taking that chance.  That really makes me wonder about what is next for me.  Obviously, I am not getting the job at the school that I wanted.  The fact that I didn't even get an interview for a job I am so unbelievably qualified for indicates that I will never get hired by the school for any permanent positions.  It is what it is.

I thought last night that I needed to get a job this year, where ever I could find one.  I am even willing to work at Kroger, although that is obviously not what I am going for.  I can't continue to be selfish and only work during school hours.  If school shuts down again, not only would I be out of subbing, but Andrew would lose a significant supplemental.  It could cost us over 15% of our income.  That is not an insignificant loss.  Because we are fairly frugal in our monthly expenses, I am not sure where we could cut to make up that loss.

However, we have been able to build our savings back up.  Right now, we just don't know what is going to be happening with Catherine, who although she is doing better, transitioning to and from sleep causes episodes.  Maybe I am just meant to be home this year so that I can be available for whatever life throws at us.

I think for right now, I am just going to take a chance on faith.  I am going to take each day as it comes, and be grateful for it.  As I keep telling everyone around me, things are going to be okay.  Now I need to start acting like that is exactly the case.