Ugh. Just ugh.

The word today is that our county is still moving in the wrong direction.  We are very close to being at Level 4, which would basically be very similar to a stay-at-home order, although businesses would not shut down right away.  It is so discouraging.

We've also learned that it seems, at best, 30 people will be here this weekend.  I feel so awful for Catherine.  Things have gone downhill so very quickly in the last ten days.  We really tried to make the best decision for her that we could.  Again, just ugh.  I'm grateful that many people are still sending cards.  The hard part, and this might be irrational, but I hate the fact that there was such a big celebration for Robert, and it feels as though she has missed so much.

On the upside, the people who are coming are pretty much our dearest friends, and we are so grateful for them.  I know that we will have a good time, and perhaps Catherine isn't really up a big crowd anyway.

We are also hearing about more and more cancellations for the fall.  I am no longer particularly optimistic that there will be college football, or pro football, or any high school fall sports or activities.  I think we will be lucky to actually have any in-person school at this point.  Andrew told me today that he is stressed about all of this.  I get it, there is so much unknown.

I try to tell myself that we are lucky because we are healthy, and Andrew is getting paid, and things are pretty good, overall.  There is just so much unpleasant news, and so much nastiness out there right now.  Some days it is hard to be upbeat!